Cut and Bleed

Rippling water

Smooths my tears

Silk and thread

Ribbons and lace

Sooths my deepest fears

The darkness swallow's the sun deep

And my heart nearly burst from all the secrets I keep

The silver lining I hold to my flesh and slash

Leaving a huge gash

Scarlet blood seeps through my veins

Hoping to eventually bleed out all of my pain

My thoughts consume me

Torn open and stitched back together as best as I know how to be

What's better then saying goodbye 

As I choke down my heart and cry?

Coming back just to leave me again

A battle with depression ill just never win

Go on....say it...say it again

Leave me

I'll fend for myself

I'll slowly let go of my health

Promises are like roses

Keep them alive and strong

Only to slowly die

So I've got trust issues

And you all wonder why?

All the times I've fallen to the ground

My face in my hands and no one there

Maybe I was scared

Out of fear for what I could do to my own worst enemy

And still you left me alone with me

I watch myself

................Cut and bleed

Let it bleed, let me fall away
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Williamson Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 12:14 AM
These poems hold some truth in them as I once was a cutter.I couldnt stand emotional pain so i resorted my attention to inflicting emotional pain.But i am in better days now as I have a husband and a beautiful baby boy named cloud that helps me through every day and my hardest hours
Adams Avatar
March 11, 2009 at 9:42 PM
Welcome to poetry soup! Very well written dear Alicia. Please tell me this is merely fictional? It is never good to see someone in so much hurt. PLease assure me your alright. Have a great day and find life can bring smiles :) Much love, ~Catherine
Roman Avatar
March 11, 2009 at 6:11 PM
I really like your promises are like roses line.its always good to get depressed feelings out thanx for the courage!
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