Cut and Bleed

Rippling water Smooths my tears Silk and thread Ribbons and lace Sooths my deepest fears The darkness swallow's the sun deep And my heart nearly burst from all the secrets I keep The silver lining I hold to my flesh and slash Leaving a huge gash Scarlet blood seeps through my veins Hoping to eventually bleed out all of my pain My thoughts consume me Torn open and stitched back together as best as I know how to be What's better then saying goodbye As I choke down my heart and cry? Coming back just to leave me again A battle with depression ill just never win Go on....say it...say it again Leave me I'll fend for myself I'll slowly let go of my health Promises are like roses Keep them alive and strong Only to slowly die So I've got trust issues And you all wonder why? All the times I've fallen to the ground My face in my hands and no one there Maybe I was scared Out of fear for what I could do to my own worst enemy And still you left me alone with me I watch myself ................Cut and bleed Let it bleed, let me fall away