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Cursed At Birth and Lonely

Such a romantic soul am I
But I live my life in limbo
As time flays by
Each day one step further
To the grave
Cursed by loneliness
Void of love I so need and crave.

It hurts so much when I am in town 
With so many women and couples around
Everyone seems to have someone but me
I am just another face in the crowd
That no one really sees
For I am invisible don't seem to measure up
Although I try to friendly and kind it's never good enough.

Everywhere I look sex is in my face
But I need so much more a tender touch
And warm embrace
It can't be normal to not be touched 
Or wanted by another human being
Loneliness took me to some dark places
I rather not have been.

I don't want to die alone
And be discovered dead in my bed
With fly's at the window pain
My heart feels like it's kicked like a football
My loneliness is killing me
And almost drove me insane.

Never truly loved never missed
No flowers or mourners at my funeral
I'll soon be dust and nothing at all.

But all I ever wanted was a wife and a child
I drink till I'm drunk to ease the pain
Each day I live a nightmare
I cannot change. 



Peter Dome,Copyright.2015. May.

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Kim Van Breda Date: 5/19/2015 3:21:00 PM Hi Peter Sad and heartfelt write.. loneliness and being alone can be two different things, or one and the same. I like to be alone, but not lonely. The theme is a universal topic which your poem depicts well #7 xx~xx Login to Reply Peter Dome Date: 5/20/2015 4:54:00 AM Thank you so much Kim. I think your right about the two,. Some times being alone for a while a desirable thing, gives us a kind of break to do things we enjoy, however going shopping hor clothes and not having anyone to ask how you look is another for example, take good care. best wishes. Pete.

Alexis Y. Date: 5/19/2015 2:19:00 AM Peter, this is a sad and emotional piece. I find myself crying once again. As others said before me you seem to be a nice guy. Don't give up on love because you haven't met her yet. When you meet her you'll know.-Alexis Login to Reply Peter Dome Date: 5/19/2015 2:28:00 AM Thank you so much. you are so kind. years and years of trying still on my own. what's wrong with me. I go out positive come home depressed. take care my friend. your words are a comfort. warm best wishes. Pete. T

Afolabi Muideen Date: 5/18/2015 4:51:00 PM What a sad touched..........I can feel your pain. Login to Reply Peter Dome Date: 5/19/2015 1:49:00 AM Thank you for stopping by your most welcome. take god care. my best wishes. Pete.

Andrea Dietrich Date: 5/18/2015 4:04:00 PM Ok, I read this sad poem and saw other comments to find out if it was true. Gosh dang, it IS true. I can't believe it, Peter. YOu are so charming here at soup. You need to take your attitude and personality from here and into the world of dating! I read what you said to Jan. I think you are finding women in the wrong places if they want to get beat up. WHAT? Find women at a church or just in a grocery store or something. Be happy and love will follow. Login to Reply Peter Dome Date: 5/19/2015 1:55:00 AM Hi my friend. hope you are ok. Yes it's true. I'm good to everyone even strangers, but women like men, can sometimes be cruel and spiteful with cutting remarks. I just don't know what women want any more. and I'm fed up of trying. yes girls wanted me to beat them, some fantasie about being raped. not that kind of guy. thank you. Pete.

Andrea Dietrich Date: 5/18/2015 4:01:00 PM so you like tattooed girls, huh? A long time ago I had considered getting a blue rose between my shoulder blades. That would have been fun! Login to Reply Peter Dome Date: 5/19/2015 2:02:00 AM Tattooed or not, if your available. ha ha. I've got the ink you provide the skin. A rose for a beautiful rose. I've had your name tattooed on my heart since I first new you. You only have to say tattoo and I'll be there in a flash. One small problem, I couldn't inflict pain on another human being, all though they inflict on me. thank you. take care my friend Pete.

Jan Allison Date: 5/18/2015 1:16:00 PM oh Peter this is so heartbreakingly sad the imagery is almost painful to visualise:-( Hugs jan xx Login to Reply Jan Allison Date: 5/18/2015 1:34:00 PM There are some lovely women out there Peter don't give up hope of meeting someone:-) hugs Jan xx Peter Dome Date: 5/18/2015 1:31:00 PM Sorry Jan don't know what happened. but I try so hard. but it's never good enough, just rejection rejection rejection. and I'm so kind and loving. I see scruffy smelly guys with nice women, what do you have to do. I've been told I'm too nice. girls want bad guys. Some girls in the past asked me why I didn't beat them up. because other ex boyfriends did. When I used to go out a few years ago. all women wanted to do was to get me into bed. but I didn't want to. it really upset me because no one really wanted me for who I was. just a one night stand. thank you Pete, Jan Allison Date: 5/18/2015 1:30:00 PM keep on writing Peter - am always around to read :-) hugs Jan xx Peter Dome Date: 5/18/2015 1:22:00 PM Thank you Jan your so sweet but I can't go on like this.

Tim Smith Date: 5/18/2015 1:09:00 PM I can feel your pain Pete...eventhough I have kids. I've been divorced for 3 and a half years and many a day I feel the same...cheers brother Login to Reply Peter Dome Date: 5/18/2015 1:16:00 PM Sorry to hear that my friend. it can't be easy. I'd die to have children of my own. I feel for you. thank you so much You're. your a great guy. best wishes. Pete.