Cursed

My face is pretty many people say but what good is a pretty face when my life I live in vain. No purpose in life but to take up space. My life is a complete waste. But please don't say it's my fault, please don't say I did not try for that would be a lie. I gave it my all but each time I would fall no matter what I did I always fail at the end. I've been cursed since my birth oh what a blessing it would be if my soul never came to be on this earth. What could be worst then not having any self worth? I have been hurt so badly if you stand near me you too may feel may pain. So little in life there is to maintain my brain I am very much surprised that I have not yet gone insane. What am I to do now? Where am I to go? Time sweeps by so quickly yet I look forwarded to nothing the next day holds. I wait patiently for something good and new to unfold. However I do not know how much longer I can stand out in the cold. I am so very much along and have no one to turn to for help I tried yelling at those who pass by, but they do not hear my cries. Perhaps they are just blind or perhaps I am just not see-able. Look at me now and tell me am I invisible? Sometimes I think this to be the case and I look in the mirror and see my pretty face and shake my head. Why must I feel like the living dead? Why must my life be in vain? I ask myself these questions but no answer do I obtain. I try to change my life for the better but it always seems to get worst. Some say it's a curse...but I believe it is just my life. Strife, Pain and Loneliness seem to be my only pals but I hate them and wish they where not around. I hide from them but they know I am too easily found. I wonder what happiness is like? Is it really as good as they say? It's hard for me to remember the last time I felt that way... Day by day my life goes by nothing but emptiness fills my heart and mind. What a unkind world I live upon it's a wonder that I'm still here. My fears I have many but my friends I have few so who am I to turn to? Will you hear my cry? Will you come to my aid? Will you be the one to stand beside me and feel my ever growing pain? If you do then I must thank you for being so kind for it may not change the entire world but it would surely change mine.