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Crying For Daddy

I had a void in my life
 That I wasn't completely aware
 Because how could you miss
 Someone that wasn't there?
 I always had imitations
 But never the real thing
 Your absence and neglect
 Were part of my upbringing
 I was jealous of friends
 Who had theirs there
 And I was stuck without one
 Because you didn't care
 I used to constantly wonder
 What I did wrong
 Why did you have another family
 In which I didn't belong
 Introduced to me for the first time
 When I was around the age of nine
 I just stared at you in awe
 And noticed that we looked alike
 At 12 I saw you again
 When you came by my school
 And when you left again
I started to feel blue
 When would I see you next?
 Would you stick around?
 Why don't you see me
 If you stay here in town?
 I wonder, if you would have stuck around
 Would my life have been different?
 Would I still be the same
 If I had both of my parents?
 You weren't around
 I didn't feel protected
 And I really wasn't
 Got me feeling rejected
 If you were here
 He wouldn't have gotten to me
 My innocence intact
 Maintaining my purity
 How could you abandon me?
 How could you leave me alone?
 You never came by to visit
 Or even picked up the phone
 I was bitter for a long time
 Because you chose others before me
 It broke my heart and hurt my feelings
 To not have my own daddy
 You accepted a child that wasn't yours
 But you never tried to raise me
 Can't you understand the confusion
 That your decisions caused me?
 I am 29 years old
 And no man has ever loved me
 I think I may have daddy issues
 Which is why I'm still one deep
 You have been with me for 8 years
 That's not much time at all
 I still can't call you "Daddy"
 Because I still have up that wall
 You don't get to pick your parents
 Some are strong, some are weak
 Some you're proud of, others you're not
 You get what you get, despite what you seek
 Yes I do love you, I really do
 Your blood runs through my veins
 But we still need to catch up
 So you can right all of my pains.

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