Crying For Daddy

I had a void in my life That I wasn't completely aware Because how could you miss Someone that wasn't there? I always had imitations But never the real thing Your absence and neglect Were part of my upbringing I was jealous of friends Who had theirs there And I was stuck without one Because you didn't care I used to constantly wonder What I did wrong Why did you have another family In which I didn't belong Introduced to me for the first time When I was around the age of nine I just stared at you in awe And noticed that we looked alike At 12 I saw you again When you came by my school And when you left again I started to feel blue When would I see you next? Would you stick around? Why don't you see me If you stay here in town? I wonder, if you would have stuck around Would my life have been different? Would I still be the same If I had both of my parents? You weren't around I didn't feel protected And I really wasn't Got me feeling rejected If you were here He wouldn't have gotten to me My innocence intact Maintaining my purity How could you abandon me? How could you leave me alone? You never came by to visit Or even picked up the phone I was bitter for a long time Because you chose others before me It broke my heart and hurt my feelings To not have my own daddy You accepted a child that wasn't yours But you never tried to raise me Can't you understand the confusion That your decisions caused me? I am 29 years old And no man has ever loved me I think I may have daddy issues Which is why I'm still one deep You have been with me for 8 years That's not much time at all I still can't call you "Daddy" Because I still have up that wall You don't get to pick your parents Some are strong, some are weak Some you're proud of, others you're not You get what you get, despite what you seek Yes I do love you, I really do Your blood runs through my veins But we still need to catch up So you can right all of my pains.