Crucified In Time

I lay spread out in pain The nail gun falls from reach My hands and feet are tied As a lesson she would teach I want to control time And turn it back one week I could have saved us both from pain But now I've been left meek What have I destroyed? All I have known Falls away in a burning flash As my flesh is stripped from bone And now you're gone for good As my empire rusts You have built again I've returned to dust I broke all I had sworn To try to find my way Away from what I thought was pain But now everything's gray I want to try to heal I want a better life But this regret is too much Maybe it would be better if I died? Look what I've become I haven't grown Still this suicidal wreck Who keeps destroying all his homes The guilt has consumed me And I want to truly be free But I cannot escape Death's awaiting me