Crazy Attachment

Lord I'm attached to this man. I dont talk to nobody about this. You the only one who understand. He is a really nice guy. We seem to have a lot in common. I really really care for him. I could even say I love him. I want him. I dont want him. He cares for me but dont want me. I don't want him to want me or care for me. Weird. It's a lot of confusion on my end. Sometimes I get frustrated and go anti socail on men. Even though it has nothing to do with men but really has every thing to do with me. I feel selfish because I dont want him with nobody else BUT I dont want him with me either. I feel crazy,Maybe I am I fear that he may be a blessing that I will miss out on. Right person at the wrong time It seems like he has my heart and we JUST friends. He dont know this. I dont want him to know this. Nobody knows this but you Lord. Nobody!! Just One night,strong connection with him Lord please unattach me from this man. I think about him all the time. I'm just divorced,2 kids from the last guy, want him not ready for him. Its like want I him now vs not ready to be with ANYONE anytime soon. It was just one night with him!!!Dam I hate him! Lord help me. Please give me strenth in the name of Jesus. Thanks for listening lord. I know you hear me. I love you. (I just ask him to go to the movies today,what the hell was I thinking? I need to stay way from him. I like him too much. Pray for me)