Could Not Stay In Heaven

Could Not Stay In Heaven So many years in this body one day I shed my flesh and bones that sheltered my soul the "good bye's" were so hard and I found myself kneeling at his feet feeling I did not belong there either he then showed me bright pictures of my wrongs and my rights then asked me "Did you give Joy"? I timidly glanced into his eyes of melted gold and brown and without words he told me "you must go back, you have much work to do. This time, remember to fill your heart". There was no "time" involved I wake up in a strange place, in a strange bed I'm a man......I look under the blankets.... "whoa, I am a Man"! I hear "honey, you're going to be late for work" what? Work? I remember......I'm a heart surgeon I deal with life I deal with death I can't save all the people. I try. I go home at night counting who I have saved that day. I feel Joy. I also have to tell loved ones,"I'm sorry, he's gone". my heart is filled, my heart is emptied I save lives, fix broken hearts. Strange....I see flashes of a girl...familiar to me when I see her, I hear a whisper that sounds like, "fill my heart" "fix my heart" "who is she"?