Contemplating
I need time by myself just to sort things out
I need to walk on God's narrow route
I'm hoping I won't disappoint Him by biting the bullet...he will marinate me with his miracles and drive away doom
His forgiveness is a spotlight I look upon during times of hardship and gloom
Commotion fills my ears for many years, but I can't make up what they say
You are as bright as tomorrow, but I'm as dark as yesterday
Often, I would contemplate on turning that around someday
I pray for unity with peaceful individuals and find the answers in God's Holy Bible...I feel the need to make cliques with other people my age
But my sheepish, strange nature and my low self-worth reduces me to rage
It feels like, when I'm around others, I feel like I'm not on the same page
Oh Lord, I want to belong
I want to belong
I need to belong
Freedom is so, so far away
Freedom is so far away
I turn away in utter dismay
Today isn't my greatest day
I pray I won't fall prey to my bipolar days
I long for praise and recognition on a daily basis
I want to stay in one place, but we go our separate ways
I am in chains in the pit of my alienated abstract abyss
What is right and wrong?
What is right and wrong?
What is right and wrong when I am always led astray?
I'm not having my way today, so I weep during a gray day
I catch a glimpse of a blue jay...I feel better I must say
But what goes up must come down
But, soon enuff, I will wear an upside down frown
In my happy-go-lucky, sun-drenched spirits, I will drown
I will seek California's grand sunlight
To block out the contemplation of delightlessness
Give me perpetual might tonight
I wish someone or He could rinse away my hopelessness
For now, I will contemplate on the positives,
Not the negatives...who gives, who really gives
Because, in my young heart, childlike happiness lives
It lives on...right when a good song is on the radio
Right on!! Rock on till the break of dawn and dance with the wind...go with your own flow and keep your spirits' unique, gracious glow
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2015
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