Confused Married Woman

I known feeling this is not the good thing The thing is I just feel like turning back the clock I feel like the time has come to stop living in the shadows I am not inlove with my husband This was really my mistake He’s money consumed me I wanted to live the dream I always fantasied But now that I face reality all is hard I miss my former lover his words keep ringing Now that I am married to this soul In my dreams I dream of my once lover We are in a very beautiful place A place where him and I rule If I really waited on him maybe this would have been reality But now all I can do is dream of us I pretend that I’m making love with him How will I be able to get out of this? Please forgive me and take me back I long to be in your arms I miss your stories, jokes and worse you.