Confession and Absolution

CONFESSION For love to be true then it should be free, But she is not free; she’s married to him. I said it didn’t matter, let it be; Exposed my soul at the ungodly rim I did not choose her on a wish or whim Yet nothing prepared me for all this pain Even knowing my chances were worse than dim I would wait and let love send me insane And like a beast cast out into the rain I searched her holy path of blood and gore While knowing where her sweet heart would remain Until my soul screamed: it could take no more. I was seeking her call of ‘I love you’ I wanted to believe, love; but I knew. ABSOLUTION I called the Lady to stand by my side As on my knees I knelt in humble prayer Forgive me goddess for all I denied Show me once more thy truth that thou art there Here forever, now and everywhere Show me thy beauty in the silver light Let me feel the tenderness of thy care Release me from this dark unholy night So I may strive to know of all that’s right And serve thy will with chalice and with blade Cast out my demons from glorious sight As I renew the promise I had made Queen of Darkness! Help me, heal me, love me Lady of Night! Bring me home, back to thee.