Communion Parasites

I worry about being unfair to other benign parasites in my feeding-frenzy faith community, and to myself, because I need and/or want a residential intentionally cooperative resiliently win/win consensus co-investing co-managing eco-responsible and responsive health-wealth community. This feels rather much to ask of someone already satisfied with a weekly sanctuary bath, washing off some of the weekday BusinessAsUsual compost, looking for ever renewing possibilities for repurposing trash into refueling treasure. I fear afflicting innocent souls with my competitive capitalistic commodifying infliction endangering all sacred values averse to genuflecting before all secularized disvalues; My own intentional community dreams of relief from justice as revenge anticipate double-binding win/win commitment to mercy as peace restoring justice for mutually healing purposes, Sacred sanctuary relations between and among strong-faithed cooperative parasites on MotherEarth, actively seeking ego-systemic kindness within and eco-systemic compassion communioned communicated through commonly-held metaphoric verbals and metaphysical non-verbals, motions and emotions also shared without my own comfortably sacred faith community. I worry this desire of mine bears little difference than a hope to live in a multicultural gym rather than to come in, invest in twenty aerobic minutes on empty rows of exercise bikes, take a quick, very private, shower, and leave enough hot water for all future regenerations. Efficient, like commercial sandwich bread, but not really the stuff of robust communion.