Coming of Age, Then Coming Down

Ecstasy: *an overpowering emotion or exaltation; a state of sudden, intense feeling. * slang 3,4-methylenedioxy-methamphetamine; MDMA: a powerful drug that acts as a stimulant and can produce hallucinations Some time after midnight, a change in the noise The bitter white pill cleaves the men from the boys Only the most hardcore of party heads gather So hungry to fly without sprouting a feather My clammy hand trembles then moves to my lips I swallow it down, I wait to lose grip I'm waiting for death to grip me by the throat I wait, for you promised my body would float My skin feels so cold I'm convinced it could crack So why is there sweat dripping down my hot back? My eyes scan the room, they jitter as they move I can't find one person not feeling the groove And why does my head seem to turn in slow motion My brain swims around like it's lost in the ocean The cramps in my hands, have they already died? I throw back my head and laugh til I cry I love this, I love it, Oh where have you been? Who knew nights could hold such rapturous dreams These people, once strangers, I cant comprehend How every last person became my best friend Red, sweating bodies, bouncing together The DJ ensures the tunes last forever Your face oozes steam and your jaw won't stay still It shudders and flutters against your own will I fight down the nausea but I'm to late Why didn't you tell me this room can rotate? I don't care coz I love you I LOVE YOU who are you? A realisation I don't even know you So this is the comedown I heard all about I fall back to earth with a cumbersome clout My body feels swollen, exhausted and battered The gnawed, raw remains of my mouth are in tatters I felt such a big girl, had nothing to lose Thought I'd walk for miles in my new grown up shoes I thought I could play at your wild games too All I've learnt is I'm still a child. Like you. Jodie Williams for Frank's Coming of age contest 5th Feb 2012