Clinging To Life

I look to the sky and ask, Can he help find my way? I've been wondering through this darkness And still haven't found the light of day. Struggle after struggle I'm trying to find my way. Time after time I'm clinging to that little bit of faith. Physically, spiritually, and emotionally drained Venturing through this storm But I can stand the rain. No angels on my shoulders, It's just demons now. Fighting for first, Never know which one is leaking out. I try to stay positive, Be optimistic about things. Then turn to a pessimist, That's a depressing change. My mind goes insane, I can't stay in one lane. Veering off-road, So my paths are never the same. Many things I've seen, Every memory is a movie scene. Many are great, but has a fuzzy screen, Bad shows up clear as day, it will make you scream. Nightmares keep taking my breath away, I can feel it in my chest. Dying multiple times, But wake up with cold sweats. I lay here and look up, I ask why me? Why put me through the fire, But have me cold as an ice rink? Many things inside that I want to question, Hard to pour out, I have introverted aggression. They say send your prayers to god, Sometimes I feel like I have to leave him a message. I ask again, can he help find my way? I'm fighting for my dreams, I'm going through wars to be king some day. Even though this road I'm taking, May not get me there right away. I still cling to that little of hope, That I won't let my faith die away.