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Choosing Sides


Even as a child of God - when it came right down to it she stood firmly on her child’s side not God’s .. and damn how I envied that.. my friend much to my dismay chose a parent as a closest confidant breaking all laws of teenage angst and going against all preconceived conceptions, norms and nature I watched as they walked a harrowed path together mom being there for child - smugly snuggly hammocked in an emotional safety net .. and damn how I envied that.. I walked my path alone because my mother would have chosen God’s side... .. and damn how I n o w envy that.. Susan Ashley September 9, 2018

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Date: 12/29/2018 3:32:00 AM
Thought provoking. I've always been of the notion that irony is the monosodium glutamate (MSG) of writing and this poem is loaded with it. Very nice.
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Date: 12/29/2018 6:24:00 PM
I relish your esteemed comments, Richard, and hold them in my grateful heart. Thank you for both, your meaningful sentiments and for your gracious visit. It is always such a joy to hear from you. Warmest wishes for a happy new year, my friend.. ~Susan
Date: 10/20/2018 12:54:00 PM
Hi Susan, once again your creativity shines in this poetic jewel. Your words always manage to draw the reader into the heart of your thought. Many of us can relate to this piece one way or the other. A deep and powerful write Susan. Have a wonderful weekend. Hugs....Mike. XX A fave.
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Date: 10/27/2018 9:21:00 PM
Thank you, dear Mike, for your glowing words of appreciation that warmly touch my heart knowing that you enjoyed and can relate to my poem. Your beautiful comments and your fave are cherished and embraced in my deepest gratitude. Please enjoy the rest of your weekend. Warmest wishes always my wonderful friend.. ~Susan
Date: 10/13/2018 11:34:00 AM
A fascinating poem, Susan, written with your usual creative and effective use of words. My understanding is that you rightly chose what is closer to the true ultimate reality of life, than the narrow created ‘God’ of righteousness rather than love, compassion and might I say, humanity.
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Date: 10/14/2018 9:50:00 AM
Thank you, Geoffrey, for your valued and insightful comments. While I agree with you that 'righteousness' can be a artificially narrow creation - as a teen, I often chose a self-serving path of least resistance (typical, in my opinion..) and my mother stood strong in her lessons of morality no matter how wildly I rebelled - and that inner strength and conviction for basic right/wrong is what I've come to so greatly admire as I raised my own children and as I grow into my older years. I always knew that she loved me though no matter how much I might have offended her values.. It's funny how much I found her teachings coming through in my parenting.. I'm sure she's proud that I'm finally growing up.. lol! I appreciate your awesome thoughts. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Date: 9/30/2018 1:03:00 AM
Such passion - Emotions exposed and open - I love when you share such poetry - close to the heart and express it well.
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Date: 10/1/2018 10:26:00 AM
Michael, your wonderful and captivating comments warm my heart and uplift my soul. Thank you truly, for sharing your beautiful thoughts and feelings with me. I'm honored to know you enjoyed my poem. Warmest wishes always.. ~Susan
Date: 9/14/2018 2:47:00 AM
My dear twisted sister I came back to tell you and our twisted brother (wicked he is too lol) that no I have not fallen in love...and I am hurt that you two would think so....lol...ok I'm not really but had to act upset lol! Your reply and explanation is back where left your lmao accusing me was left! Lol but no I do not have plans on that dreaded"L" word anytime soon nor in the future! Lol I only need one lesson! Still a beautiful write my sane sister!;) Love your insane and single sister!;)
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Date: 9/14/2018 10:26:00 AM
Oh, my dear twisty twin.. I would never want to do or say anything to hurt or upset you.. lol - because you know what they say about twins feeling each other's pain.. lol! But seriously, I always have your best interests at heart - it's just what twin sister's do! :)) Thank you for your wonderful visit and lovely comments, my crazy sis. I'm glad you enjoyed my poem. Love and hugs your sane, and looking out for you always, older (but only by a few minutes.. lol!), twinster :))
Date: 9/13/2018 4:11:00 PM
Just saw your reply to me, so yes I did get it after all!! Yet still I kind of wish my mom had been a bit more on the wild side!!!
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Date: 9/14/2018 10:20:00 AM
Yes, I can understand that, Andrea.. When I was younger, especially as a rebellious teen, I used to wish that too.. but as I got older, and especially now, I've come to admire the strength of conviction she had in religious, moral and matters of life in general. I'm sure she's proud that I'm finally growing up.. lol! Thank you for your lovely thoughts. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Date: 9/13/2018 11:23:00 AM
ah, you made my heart cry, This hit me so hard Susan. My mom would of too. She passed away a few years ago, my how I miss her, every part of her. She was both a lion and a paw caress. Thank you for sharing your heart, so true and revealing that it turns ordinary poetry into great poetry.
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Date: 9/13/2018 2:24:00 PM
Pixie, your beautiful and meaningful comments are truly cherished and I appreciate you sharing your lovely and heartfelt thoughts with me.. it seems like we have much more in common than just our love for poetry.. Warmest wishes my inspiring friend.. ~Susan
Date: 9/13/2018 10:43:00 AM
wow, this really is a powerful write, my friend. Awesome
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Date: 9/13/2018 2:20:00 PM
Thank you so much, Jack. I'm pleased that my poem resonated with you. Your precious comments are appreciated and bring me joy, my friend. Warmest wishes always.. ~Susan
Date: 9/12/2018 8:25:00 PM
Very powerful and deep, Susan. How can a mother NOT be by her child's side, same goes for a father in my books. But then again how can one not choose the lords side. and damn...how I envy that. Great write that left us all with a sigh. Warmest wishes my dear friend. ~Charlie
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Date: 9/13/2018 2:15:00 PM
Indeed, my dear friend, good fathers stand by their children with just as much strength and conviction as good mothers do.. I'm so pleased that my poem resonated with you and your thoughtful and meaningful comments are truly and deeply appreciated. Your wonderful thoughts are always such a pleasure to read. Thank you for the delight of your charming friendship, dear Charlieku.. :)) Warmest wishes always.. ~Susan
Date: 9/12/2018 5:09:00 AM
Your poem brought a wide smile to my face; in fact, a broadening grim, reminding me of how much like my father I have become in my old age--speaking many of the same, once thought, annoying expressions, often out-loud exclamations, to myself about the "Dang young Whippersnappers!" As it is said: old too soon and wise too late. Well, maybe not. Good preparation for next time around:)
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Date: 9/13/2018 2:07:00 PM
Indeed, Joe. I can relate to your wonderful and thoughtful comments, as I feel the same way about becoming more like my mother, the older I get. I'm so pleased that my poem resonated with you and I thank you for sharing your precious thoughts with me.. and I agree with your last lovely thought that it's 'good preparation for next time around'.. :)) Warmest wishes my friend.. ~Susan
Date: 9/12/2018 1:55:00 AM
This is really well expressed. Children feel safer when their parents have strong values.
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Date: 9/13/2018 2:03:00 PM
Indeed, Richard.. Thank you for sharing your wonderful thoughts with me. I relish your kind visit as well as your meaningful comments. Warmest wishes my friend.. ~Susan
Date: 9/11/2018 5:16:00 PM
I feel very fortunate to have had a mother who taught me to put God first as she did. Your poem teaches a wonderful message Susan. Very wonderfully composed! : )
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Date: 9/13/2018 2:00:00 PM
Thank you, Connie, for your thoughtful and meaningful comments. I'm so pleased that you could relate so wonderfully with my poem. Warmest wishes always my friend.. ~Susan
Date: 9/11/2018 12:46:00 PM
...well my twin sib twister sister...we love you on 'THIS SIDE'...deep write...love & forever more...+WW+
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Date: 9/13/2018 1:58:00 PM
Oh, my twisty sib, one third of the twisted triplet trio, it's always so wonderful to read your uplifting and smile inspiring comments.. BTW; our twis sis, in the West wing, is requesting, no, demanding BBQ tonight... lol! Love, hugs and warmest wishes to you always wicked one.. :)) ~Suse
Date: 9/11/2018 7:04:00 AM
Interesting poem Susan, that explores a lot of soul searching here.. I think in general more people would choose their child than God today, but may not have been the case then... Great thought provoking piece..
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Date: 9/13/2018 1:53:00 PM
It's always a privilege when you share your wonderful thoughts with me, Silent One. I didn't always heed my loving Mom's advice as a young person, but as I get older, I truly appreciate the wisdom she had and I admire the example she set for me.. I just wish I would have appreciated it back then.. Thank you for your wonderful and meaningful comments, my friend.. Warmest wishes. ~Susan
Date: 9/11/2018 4:58:00 AM
Ah my twister twinster, you brought gooses bumps to my arms,! Ah see you need to stop no keep it up I liked I love it my sane twin,, n! Where our other part of our trip? Tell that twisted part of the Rio I want some bar b que tonight,,! Ugs your twisted twin in an insane way!
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Date: 9/13/2018 1:49:00 PM
Thank you, my twisty sis, for your beautiful comments, goosebumps and all..! lol! I will let our twisted triplet know of your cravings for a BBQ and I'll make sure it's in the South wing so neither us us has to clean up.. lol! The gimpy butler is useless for jobs like that.. ;) Love and hugs my dear crazy twinster.. Your sane, but hankering for BBQ too, slightly crazed, twin sis! :))
Date: 9/10/2018 6:22:00 PM
I was not sure I totally got this one but the ending has a big impact. I loved the repeating part and how it changed at the end.
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Date: 9/12/2018 9:07:00 PM
Thank you, Andrea. Your thoughtful comments are truly appreciated. Life comes with an overabundance of choices, luckily, I had a mother who set a good example about making choices and decisions - I didn't always heed her examples as a young person but as I get older I truly appreciate and admire the wisdom and strength that she had. Warmest wishes always.. ~Susan
Date: 9/10/2018 4:21:00 PM
Well, it is good for a parent to love their child so unconditionally even if they are wrong in what they do. God loves us no matter what we do but He wants us to confess, repent and turn around and do what is right. Thanks for the visit to my page. I appreciate the time spent there. Sara
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Date: 9/12/2018 9:05:00 PM
Indeed, Sara. So beautifully said. Thank you for your meaningful and thoughtful comments. Your kind visit and lovely thoughts are truly appreciated.. ~Susan
Date: 9/10/2018 2:52:00 PM
Powerful verse my dear friend. Your pen forever bleeds gold and your immense and very kind heart continues to share treasures with we the readers of your superbly crafted creative and message gifting poetry! A fav..
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Date: 9/12/2018 9:03:00 PM
Thank you, dear Robert, for your glowing words of appreciation that touch my heart warmly knowing that you enjoyed my poem. Your beautiful comments and your fav are cherished and embraced in my deepest gratitude. Warmest wishes always my wonderful friend.. ~Susan
Date: 9/10/2018 2:50:00 PM
Choices are often based on values. When values get eroded, in an attempt to compromise, the results are not as healthy as expected. Good can't ever be bad...and vice versa. A true loving mother knows the difference between right and wrong; she passes that to her children, too. ~ Yours is a powerful message, Susan. ~ Warm regards and hugs, my friend. // paul
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Date: 9/12/2018 8:59:00 PM
You, my dear friend, possess the uncanny ability to read my poem as if you've experienced it yourself.. Indeed, the heart of it, is as you say, and you say it so elegantly and beautifully, Paul. Your precious comments are held in my truest appreciation. Warmest wishes and hugs always my insightful friend.. ~Susan
Date: 9/10/2018 12:41:00 PM
Great right Susan. You can never error on the side of God. And all those lonely times you can give to Him, He sees our stands and knows our hearts And He loves us inspire of ourselves .
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Date: 9/12/2018 8:50:00 PM
Indeed, Vincent. So beautifully said. Thank you for your meaningful and thoughtful comments. Your wonderful thoughts are truly appreciated. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Date: 9/10/2018 12:38:00 PM
What a powerful, thought provoking piece, Susan. It's unclear to me why we must choose sides yet I know we are all faced with decisions. Well done, I really enjoyed it Happy Monday xxoo
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Date: 9/12/2018 8:48:00 PM
Thank you, Mike. Your thoughtful and meaningful comments are truly appreciated and I'm so happy you enjoyed my poem. Life comes with an overabundance of choices, luckily I had a mother who set a good example about making choices and decisions - I didn't always heed her examples as a young person but as I get older I truly appreciate and admire the wisdom and strength that she had. Warmest wishes my friend.. ~Susan
Date: 9/10/2018 9:11:00 AM
Everyone on their journey to love... look left then right and choose your own...Very relevant to what happens everyday to everyone...in the loop of life...A lovely write Susan...cool day today choose a jacket or go out any way...
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Date: 9/12/2018 8:42:00 PM
Indeed, a journey to love, Arturo. Thank you for your lovely thoughts that brighten my day.. Warmest wishes always, mon ami.. ~Susan
Date: 9/10/2018 3:34:00 AM
Love your last stanza Susan, and of course we're never really alone because we have our faith. Tom
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Date: 9/11/2018 4:49:00 PM
Indeed, Tom. I always feel His presence.. Thank you for the kindness of your visit and your beautiful comments. Warmest wishes always my friend.. ~Susan
Date: 9/10/2018 1:00:00 AM
When alone, a devoted provocative expressive pen chooses to side with a poetess of wealth.. whose heart chambers of love, light anf faith full and ever radiating.. Mother a never waning ache.. an ever growing longing.. Your pen dear Susan "stood firmly on your side" and fashioned this heartfelt beauty, "how I envy that"! A great piece of heart! A FAV. You never cease to amaze, I will never cease to praise! Deepest regards.. my love and hugs.
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Date: 9/12/2018 8:38:00 PM
My dearest friend, Besma, I am so delighted that my passionate pen spilled ink that touched your lovely heart. Your precious thoughts fill me with elation and appreciation for your beautiful feedback and your presence is always ardently embraced.. I find, the older I get, the more I truly appreciate and hold close to my heart, the lessons taught from the example my mother set. Though she's gone, she will always be my shining light. Thank you for the beauty of your comments and for the fav. My warmest wishes, love and hugs.. ~Susan
Date: 9/9/2018 10:14:00 PM
Wow that's potent. Evocative ink Susan! Well done <3 xomo!
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Date: 9/11/2018 4:48:00 PM
Thank you so much my lovely Maureen. Your precious comments always bring me joy <3 Warmest wishes always my friend.. ~Susan