Choose To Run Or Stay

For Anoucheka Gangabissoon I chose to run but what would have thing's been like if I had stayed 30 / 10 / 2022 After my Dad received his Cancer diagnosis Later when he was eventually ready to do so he gathered all of us his family together and told us And half the way through him telling us I myself had already in my head and heart begun to plot my escape and run away Because that is what I do and sum's me and who I am up ever so succinctly And that is exactly what I did I got on an aeroplane as fast as I possibly could and flew away because I couldn't run that far Then I got that dreaded phone call from my mum telling me if I wished to see him before he's gone I had better come home immediately As his time was running out quickly It was time to make our peace because he is about to meet his maker So I came back and I am so glad I did because that may well be the best thing I ever did and also the very best quality time we ever actually spent And quite frankly I was embarrassed and should rightly have been told and been met with vitriol by him and my mom who had taken such dedicated loving care of him But what difference would i have made if I had have chosen to stay and not run away Being brutality truthfully honest to myself probably none not a 1 single iota thing would have probably have changed at all or I made better Otherwise I would have probably stayed and never left at all You see that's just me in a nutshell sill up until this day Always, always Running away Never towards Or staying My dad always said of me I chose to play in goal because I hated or didn't like running and boy was he right Unless it came to dealing with the realities of life itself Then I became a world record holder champion who could never be caught you only ever seen the back of me But unfortunately it's more akin to a criminal record not 1 to be proud of or look back with any form of pride And for which sorry means little or nothing at all because he deserved far better than that But he died I can't run away from that or made it better if I had have chosen to stay either way