Caught Myself

I should have caught myself before I ran away
Letting you guide my actions with your love and lust
...allowing myself to be dragged down to you
You played your games, spun your lies, left your mark
And those scars will eventually heal BUT serve as reminders
that lies are pretty till caught
I should have stopped myself the first time our eyes met
and I put up my walls
I should have screamed and stayed focused
instead of letting that need consume me
I knew you weren't what I wanted 
but I felt wanted in your arms

Though I knew in my heart it wasn't you...
I craved love
I should have caught myself spinning my own set of 
self-indulgent lies
They didn't hurt you but they killed my hope
Next time I will catch my heart from leading
me into these games
And realize that being alone in the light
Is much better than bedding with lies at night
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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