Can'T Go Back

I sit here and remember the good times we all had and how things could be. Realising I loved you too much and pushed in all the wrong ways that’s just me I loved you with all my heart but I made mistakes and now I cant go back. I wish I could have been the man you wanted but I’m not perfect there’s so much I lack. I know I was jealous and overwhelming and I can’t go back and change history as much as I’d like too. But I’m hopeful one day you’ll see all the love I had for you and forgive me maybe we could even start a new. I wish I hadn’t let others interfere or hurt you with all the things in anger I said. But I can’t go back just know I’ll love you always even when I’m dead. I know what we shared was real and you loved me but I listened to others and let them influence me. If I could go back I’d ignore all the things they said and not fall for their games then we’d still be. I wish I could go back but know I cant and now all my dreams for us are shattered. It was a mystery why you loved me and now I’ve lost you, but know by each kiss I was flattered. I know I questioned to much why you'd love me that was the root for others to start to twist things. What I should have concentrated on was the love we shared and all the joy to my life your love brings. But I know we can’t go back I’m still in love with you and always will be. I just hope you realise for you I will always care and I’m glad you loved me.