Can We Be Friends?
Why are you acting so bold towards me?
I thought we could end up being friends.
I didn’t realize that my actions towards you would cause our friendship to end.
In the moments that existed before hand,
I assumed it was the right thing to do.
But now in the moments afterwards,
I blame myself for walking away from you.
I mean at least I could have stood there,
And waited for you to plead your case.
But see that’s my point exactly.
I was already too ashamed to look you straight in the face.
There’s two roads that were my options to take.
One which I would have taken alone.
Unfortunately, there’s the one that I chose,
And on that road I felt I didn’t belong.
The 1st one would have been happy in the beginning, but soon I would feel by myself in the
relationship.
I would ask myself on the days that he didn’t come home,
What is he doing in the streets and who is he doing it with?
On the road that I decided to walk upon,
It was my duty to tell you how I felt.
But I didn’t acknowledge to myself that by telling you this,
It would cause your smile and my heart to melt.
I knew that I had to tell you…
…because I felt I was cramping your style.
I had to find out who I was by leaving you alone for a while.
The thought of us being together…
…in your life I felt I had no place.
Truly deep down in my heart I knew I was smothering you so I had to give you some space.
I constantly sat there waiting…
For you…is who I missed.
But I was tired of looking stupid,
For someone who left me clueless.
I’m not upset at the fact that you didn’t like me,
But by the way you couldn’t say it.
I promise you that I would have left you alone,
Then the lust for you would have faded.
But even if you did feel the same,
I admire you for not wanting to play with my head.
We both know that a possibility of us was less than likely,
That’s why it’s impossible for me to feel sad.
So I hope there aren’t any hard feelings.
What I feel for you would probably never die.
I would stop in my tracks to say hello…
…To you, my friend, as you are passing by.
Copyright © Jerrika Holmes | Year Posted 2010
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