Can I Still Sing You a Lullaby(I Hope This Opens Your Eyes!)

"...and if that mocking bird don't sing... mamas gonna buy you a diamond ring" Can I sing you a lullabye? At night, when I can no longer fight the tears or pretend to be healed.... I sing to you and beg you to forgive me? Do you hear me? Angel of my womb dagger to the heart I did it I did it to myself with no one to blame I contemplate suicide and wear the shame on my sleeve hoping someone will come up to me and ask me how it feels to be a murderer so I can look at them dead in the eyes and say "I walk dead.... my soul committed suicide after that night" baby... my baby... put up a fight.... betrayed by her creator... all those pro choice persuaders are killing the voice of tommorrow with their voices today i fell astray and following the clan I let them convince me that I had a plan and she just didnt fit in with it innocence shattered with my choice no chance to share her voice I silenced it silence....... Empty... body full of blood, and lost love, and a fields of children screaming begging pleading asking "wheres my mommy" "i want my mommy" small clothing, childrens drawing... and me walking living breathing free while my baby bleeds bleeds for my mistake for my hate the moment you were conceived did u smile and thank God to be in me? Did I confuse you by feeding you and rubbign my belly Did you prepare for you death.... Did you of think of your mommy as less? No words can convey how much I miss you... I wish for one second I could kiss you inhale your smell and exude it with my love Im haunted... I heard you cry that night Saw you die that night Could you ever forgive me? the pain lives within me... everyday ...i promise you... you'll always be my first I dont want you to cry.... baby please forgive my sins... your memory lives within.. Can I still please sing one lullabye every night to remind you thats it alright... mommy is still here... and shes sorry....