Can I Still Sing You a Lullaby(I Hope This Opens Your Eyes!)
"...and if that mocking bird don't sing... mamas gonna buy you a diamond ring"
Can I sing you a lullabye?
At night, when I can no longer fight the tears or pretend to be healed....
I sing to you
and beg you to forgive me?
Do you hear me?
Angel of my womb
dagger to the heart
I did it
I did it to myself
with no one to blame
I contemplate suicide
and wear the shame
on my sleeve
hoping someone will come up to me
and ask me how it feels to be a murderer
so I can look at them dead in the eyes and say
"I walk dead....
my soul committed suicide after that night"
baby... my baby... put up a fight.... betrayed by her creator...
all those pro choice persuaders
are killing the voice of tommorrow with their voices today
i fell astray and following the clan
I let them convince me that I had a plan and she just didnt fit in with it
innocence shattered with my choice
no chance to share her voice
I silenced it
silence.......
Empty...
body full of blood, and lost love, and a fields of children screaming begging
pleading asking "wheres my mommy" "i want my mommy"
small clothing, childrens drawing... and me walking
living
breathing
free
while my baby bleeds
bleeds for my mistake
for my hate
the moment you were conceived did u smile and thank God to be in me?
Did I confuse you by feeding you and rubbign my belly
Did you prepare for you death....
Did you of think of your mommy as less?
No words can convey how much I miss you...
I wish for one second I could kiss you
inhale your smell and exude it with my love
Im haunted...
I heard you cry that night
Saw you die that night
Could you ever forgive me?
the pain lives within me...
everyday ...i promise you... you'll always be my first
I dont want you to cry.... baby please forgive my sins... your memory lives within..
Can I still please sing one lullabye every night to remind you thats it alright...
mommy is still here... and shes sorry....
Copyright © Derik Spangler | Year Posted 2007
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