Brotherly Bummer Plods Along His Staid Usual Humdrum Life Part One

Methinks lame excuses poorly explain absent presence gnosh hoe wing up to acknowledge our papa's ninetieth orbit around sun, nor dearly beloved eldest commencement successfully, modestly, honestly (applying her smarts) as freshly minted (sage) University of Pennsylvania graduate, now where webbed wide world avails untold opportunities to make positive accomplishments, this papa never set similar goals for himself, he languished leaving untested latent abilities, now glum, distraught, afflicted with irrevocable jangling lamentation foregoing, forfeiting, forging pathetic enactment regarding livingsocial versus squirreling himself hermetically sealed never linkedin with training sights keeping traction upon maximizing native abilities, thus frequent depressive bouts find me prone speculating nonexistence, (i.e. death), yet averse toward aggressive unconscionable dirty deeds done dirt cheap expediting end game of Life, cuz day after week after month... pits me against hand to mouth monetary woe whereat cost to maintain, insure, fuel 2019 Hyundai Sonata takes lion's share of monetary impossible mission to become financially solvent, and hashtagged social anxiety deters persevering gainful employment, where self loathing regarding predilection with profuse sweaty hands finds yours truly aggravated enough to admit disability to enjoy remains of days, weeks, months... subsumed by penuriousness diminishes excitement toward any purpose, plus disgruntled without webbed bliss, nor