Broken Heart Thief

The hurt and pain has gone on way to long Despite my efforts to hold on and stay strong I find myself losing hope I'm not quite sure just how to cope I do what I can't to forget his name By playing myself into some risky game Use medication to make it through the day Can't quite find the words to say To the thoughts in my head that can't stay silent To the anger in me that needs to be violent I gave all I had till there was nothing left He walks away free with a broken heart theft I'm trying like crazy to erase his memories I keep But the more I try the more the wounds dig deep The foster child who put up a wall Found a man to break it down Only to find out he was her demise and fall So I'm mad at him and myself for believing That I could be so fooled by looks that were deceiving From the reason I'm smiling To my river of tears He has no regret He doesn't even care I should have know he was not the one When he wasn't moved by the death of his son God help the cold heart that lies within And rid him of his every sin Broken, bruised, hurt, and tethered Our vows will be forever shattered Though nothing will ever heal his damage I have hope for the heart held together with a bandage.