Broken

Why? Why? do you always mess with my head always screwing me around and making me scared Why do you put on a act and pretend your all sweet and then turn around and start screaming like its all normal Im frightened Im worried of what youve done to me and of what you will do I dont know who you are I never have and never will Will you hurt me again and leave me in throbbing pain Will i be able to pick myself up again from your mistakes and feel so much more heartache You destroyed my soul you killed me made me so weak and lost You didnt care to think of how i was You just hurt me bruised me and crushed me I felt so alone and scared of being me like i always had to try to be someone other than this I tried to impress you please you and love you But all i got was beatings and bruises I cried so many tears and i felt so useless worthless and ugly All those lies you drilled into my head made me so insecure and broken You never thought of how i was coping I looked to you constantly for guidance but you always put me down and made sure that i knew that i was worth nothing That i had no future or hope that my dreams were nothing and that i would never succeed You neglected me from food, from peace, from love You neglected me from money and didnt give me things i needed You took away my soul and laughed while you were doing it You loved taking photos of me crying because you received joy out of me suffering Feeling so vulnerable and broken i wanted someone to understand me and stick by me someone that would love me and never leave me behind I needed someone to look after me and stick by me and help me to be strong when i was weak Everyone around just watched you laugh they all saw it happening they all saw the suffering And there you go again destroying my soul and then manipulating me so that i would forgive you the only way you would provide I was so young and you depended on me through it all telling me about my mothers secrets telling me all these lies making me feel sorry for you when all i wanted to do was be a kid You didnt eat, you didnt sleep all you did was work and expected me to look after you You didnt care if i starved and was sad and afraid and broken You just wanted to be happy with yourself and enjoy the life you have chosen You hurt her so much and i just wanted to shoot you I have to pick up all my broken pieces because you broke me