Brain Surgery

I was so 'afraid of it happening', because of what my life was turning into. I was getting ready on going to 'F.S.U.', to try and become a 'Meteorologist/Astronomer/Computer Science Engineer. I was so 'afraid of it happening'. Now I have a hard time remembering things that I just thought of. I have a thought, but next there gone. That's scary! My only control over forgetting is writing down my days. If I remember that. I was so 'afraid of it happening'. It's really horrible. When I want to remember. I can't! When I'm not paying attention to what ever is happening. I can remember that. Some moments I think that I shouldn't 'FEEL'. Because that's the only thing I have to keep me away from things. I was so 'afraid of it happening', yet I just want to finish living my life plus making my life better than it was. :-( Where my life is heading right now. I sure hope that it will make my mother Happy. I started at 'Marchman Technical Education Center,' to try and find out what I am good at. I graduated 'Commercial Foods' class with a 'Certificate'. I can remember myself before 'Surgery'!!!!! I then got a new job. It is a lot better than my last one! :-) There are many ways to make my life better, the thing is, I need to find them!