Blood Drain

What I want to be is content Satisfied Pleased with my life Looking at myself I've lost self love I've lost self assurance I've lost self actualization I've lost me In this deadly process I've been searching Like forensics teams on missing person's For a purpose I'm starting to lose focus Envy starts arising Plentiful opportunities to hurt Yet the only blood that drops Is from my own skin Losing It's evident That i'm draining Not understanding the path That has been chosen I can't find joy in the best things I simply poke needles until they inflate That's just my state Love is in the air I'm starting to feel a lil ***** Cause nobody is ever there Everybody else gets their someone Alone. I lose more blood. My heart beat stops I'm draining away