Kaila B.A Poet Free verse

Bleaching My Guilt

The room is dark 
Because, I turned off the light
I sit in the middle of my room
I can see everything in black

I feel the guilt, wanting to get out of my chest
I'm guilty, Guilt is eating me up
Guilty for letting my self down like this
Guilty I can't sleep or rest

I bleach myself so hard
Hoping for my regret to go away
Then I get my bottle of wine
Guilt is taking over my world

I close my eyes trying not to see 
then i see with my head 
I try not to think
But, my heart won't set me free

I wonder if I will ever let go 
I wonder if forever I will be asking the word WHY?
I try to find answers for being stupid
But, I know some day I will get myself through

I take a sponge and keep bleaching
Because, It is bothering me in and out side
I bleach myself hoping to be clean again
But, Dirt is stuck, keeps me far from reaching


After hours of deep thoughts and tears
My heart is feeling softer now 
I feel like a human again and I forgive myself
I'm no more scared to meet my fear

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John Rhinem May 9, 2012 at 10:01 AM Smile ˜ Good For You, My Dear Sweeet Beautiful Kaila * Tis A Blessing Sometimes To Be Cleansed Amid These Fires ˜ Yet Rest Assured, There Is No Condemnation Now For They In CHRIST JESUS * THE KING OF KINGS * To Whom Every Knee Shall Bow; Here Upon The Earth, In Heaven, & Below * My Beautiful Lady, Love Always, John!:) ˜