Bitter-Sweet Pain

Oh, the sound of your voice
rings in my ear.
I remember how we talked 
eventhough we haven't spoken in months.

As the days passed,
I longed for you more and more,
Daydreaming about you with me,
and how things would've been.

But when that decision came, 
the decision that would make us or break us, 
I asked you for help,
for your guidance. 

The pain in knowing
that I couldn't have you, 
ached at me, 
and my heart.

The knowlegde in knowing
the emptiness without you,
when I let you out of my life, 
scared me.

It was either pain, or company.
Either way, pain was coming.
So, I asked you, 
And you decided to let go
Of the company so the pain...
could "ease".

Oh, how I wish, 
That the pain would "ease", 
but it just came harder...
much harder.

Pain...
Bitter...
Hurting me so much, 
cause I let you go.

Pain...
Sweet...
Knowing that I
won't force you to love me.

Oh, the Bittery-Sweetness of
Pain.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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November 21, 2009 at 8:32 PM
Letting go is very hard, very painful, Hosea. We can't force anyone to love us. All we can do is offer love and hope it is returned. Sometimes it isn't and the pain of which you speak feels like a knife twisting in the stomach. Memories of lost love truly are bitter-sweet. Very sad, heartfelt poem, beautifully written. Love, Carolyn
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