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Bittersweet

How many have experienced this?
First, getting caught in this web 
Of feelings so absurd, yet amazing
Then comes the daily battle for freedom
We literally slowly begin to lose ourselves
In this crazy continuous hate of self

We've been best friends seven years
But not once did I care about dressing to impress
So,what now is this that makes me so conscious?
Wanting to wear diamonds and look baked
Yet wishing no one notices but you

What feeling is this that makes me so jealous
Of old friends being by your side?
What is this I can't control?
What is this that pulls me closer
Even when I want to be so far from you?

Oh,what weird feeling is this that envelopes my heart
Making me act ten years younger
Is this what is called insanity?
Daydreams becoming as constant as days changing
Of you and I drowning in eternal happiness

We're vibrant teenagers now, and should I say?
Just the sight of you, takes my breath away
I'm loving you alone from a distance
Afraid to ruin the gemütlich friendship we both share
Very much convinced that I'm the only one with these weird feelings

Taking me to the familiar yet alluring colourful display
Of the many flowers in our secret garden,
My heart had never leaped higher than in the instant we locked hands
Your shaky voice making my name sound like lyrics to a song
Looking at you with great expectations, wishing my dreams would come true
Your gloom expression,a warning to expect very little
Yet my heart bled when you said "good-bye"

Still,what feeling is this that makes pain so comforting
Involuntarily choosing to dwell only in happy memories
Forgiving with no apologies rendered
Holding on to our friendship bracelet with all I had
Wanting to never lose the "forever" we promised each other

Years have passed and I can now call you a man
My ambitions fulfilled,I guess it's time to let go of our memories
Wrongly convinced I've been the only one with the weird feeling
But nature is always ahead of the unsuspecting to bring true lovers together
For my long lost Eddie turned out to be my very own boss

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