Bittersweet

How many have experienced this? First, getting caught in this web Of feelings so absurd, yet amazing Then comes the daily battle for freedom We literally slowly begin to lose ourselves In this crazy continuous hate of self We've been best friends seven years But not once did I care about dressing to impress So,what now is this that makes me so conscious? Wanting to wear diamonds and look baked Yet wishing no one notices but you What feeling is this that makes me so jealous Of old friends being by your side? What is this I can't control? What is this that pulls me closer Even when I want to be so far from you? Oh,what weird feeling is this that envelopes my heart Making me act ten years younger Is this what is called insanity? Daydreams becoming as constant as days changing Of you and I drowning in eternal happiness We're vibrant teenagers now, and should I say? Just the sight of you, takes my breath away I'm loving you alone from a distance Afraid to ruin the gemütlich friendship we both share Very much convinced that I'm the only one with these weird feelings Taking me to the familiar yet alluring colourful display Of the many flowers in our secret garden, My heart had never leaped higher than in the instant we locked hands Your shaky voice making my name sound like lyrics to a song Looking at you with great expectations, wishing my dreams would come true Your gloom expression,a warning to expect very little Yet my heart bled when you said "good-bye" Still,what feeling is this that makes pain so comforting Involuntarily choosing to dwell only in happy memories Forgiving with no apologies rendered Holding on to our friendship bracelet with all I had Wanting to never lose the "forever" we promised each other Years have passed and I can now call you a man My ambitions fulfilled,I guess it's time to let go of our memories Wrongly convinced I've been the only one with the weird feeling But nature is always ahead of the unsuspecting to bring true lovers together For my long lost Eddie turned out to be my very own boss