Birds of Paradise

The thought of marriage scares me blind It controls everything Including your mind I am a free spirit A walking soul But I have a hard time letting to The thought of love just scares me now It has bruised me so bad I don't think I’ll ever go back What are feelings? Do I feel? I can feel when life is unreal but that is all I stand up, and I fall Will I ever grow to be strong and tall? Maybe one day, just now not I am not the ordinary face in the crowd I am 1 in a million and I want to Stand tall I am tired of being tired! Sick of being sick! Sometimes I feel like life is just a trick It's all about perspective; I know But it's so hard to let go I am stuck in the past, only trying to move forward Onward I try to go, or will I try to jump out a window? I don't know; One side of my brain says yes, the other no It's like there's two people inside my brain And yes, I know that sounds insane But I cannot decide about anything I ever want to do You strewed my brain up just like chicken soup Now all I have is my memories and time to move on But it's been two years, and our story was still going on I miss the song that my heart used to play The soul that was not caged by these thoughts Give me my wings back so I can fly I understand why the caged bird cries;