Beyond the Frontier

Where am I? Why is it dark?
This isn’t what I had in mind when I left the park…
Why isn’t the wind whispering…the songbirds singing?
All I remember is a telephone ringing…
A scream and a crash and a pain in my side…
Is this what happens after one’s died?
I don’t feel like myself, I feel wild and free,
Yet I’m cold and alone, 'stead of filled with glee.

My whole life I’ve studied, and pondered, and prayed,
Trying to fathom what would happen this day
But now that it’s here, I’m beginning to fear
Maybe the afterlife’s not what it appears…
It’s certainly not what I’ve been told by my preacher
Or my parents or brother or best friend or teacher…
Is it a bad thing, or is it good?
Maybe it’s just not quite understood...

While I was on Earth, I just couldn’t wait
To meet good St. Peter at the heavenly gate
And ask him a question or query or two
“What was my purpose?” “What good did I do?”
“What’s it all for?” “How does it all flow?”
“Can I have one more body, one more try, one more go?”
But where is the angel? Where is the gate? And
If this is Hell, then where is Ol’ Satan?
Am I a lost soul? Am I forgotten?
Am I to be left here until I am rotten?

Lo and behold! what, now, can this be?
Is this a wonderful spiritual epiphany?
Is this the magical feeling all souls receive
When they leave Earth? Oh! was I that naïve?
How could I have not seen the realism?
Why was I consumed in man-made idealism?
This is more wondrous than all I was taught
Oh, all the times I argued and fought
With others, ‘bout how their views were asinine
Now I see, theirs were just as wrong as mine!
Little I thought was actually correct!
How, why, did I let others petty beliefs infect
My untouched, my pure, my virgin mind?
I regret all the hours I self-tortured to find
That compared to what I see now, I was empty and blind…

Wait - - What is this that I see?
What is this gateway that is revealed unto me?

Now a door is opened to my immortal soul
I am expected now to enter my life’s final goal…
I am scared, intimidated, but still I am glad…
For the truth I have just seen is anything but bad.
This is the end of my journey, I’ve nothing to fear,
For now I am going Beyond the Frontier.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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A   Avatar
May 14, 2016 at 3:12 PM
NICE TO SEE THIE ONE AGAIN, JACOB..LINDA
Merryman Avatar
March 30, 2013 at 10:57 AM
A thought provoking write. Congrats on your win, Jacob! Love, Kim
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March 28, 2013 at 4:05 AM
Congratulations on your win Jacob xx
A  Avatar
March 27, 2013 at 5:31 PM
Jacob, The New Poets of 2013, Congratulations in this contest. Hope to read more of your poems soon. Take Care*SKAT
Gasun Avatar
March 25, 2013 at 11:37 AM
This is really amazing! I love this heartfelt write of yours my dear Jacob! Thanks for sharing and big congrats on your super win! love/hugs, Leonora
Jones Avatar
March 25, 2013 at 8:34 AM
Congrats on your awesome win...Donna
Williams Avatar
March 25, 2013 at 5:31 AM
Great write and congatulations Jacob
A   Avatar
March 24, 2013 at 8:21 PM
Hello Jacob, CONGRATULATIONS with the first poem you posted on the soup :-) it was an honor in hosting this contest for the New Poets of 2013. Thank you for the support. Please enjoy your winning poem. By the way, I posted a blog in honor of the poets who made the list of this contest. The blogs name ----> ""I got the answer :-) What is a poet?"" please check out the blog when you have time. It's a nice gesture from me to you... PS... I hope you like it here.. ~ xox ~ LINDA
A   Avatar
March 20, 2013 at 8:26 PM
Hello Jacob, i like the way you are your own narrator in your poem. I think the frontier you found is worth following... darkness should not follow you there... by the way thank you for the nice comment. hope you enjoy being part of this soup community. I sure do love it here... always~ LINDA
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March 21, 2013 at 8:45 AM
Hey Linda, I just wanted to say thank you for making me feel welcome here, and thank you for all the encouraging comments on my poems :) i can tell I'm going to love it here!
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