"beginning of High School"

I don't know how it came to be. I don't understand how I came to ever feel this way. I didn't understand why I wanted to so much. Or how come I wanted you so much. I wondered why I still even wondered if you would ever think of me. I always thought of possible ways to ever speak a single word to you. I always thought of myself as the girl with a crush on the football star. I never thought of myself as anyone important in your life. I have come to understand I am just another girl who walks down the halls that means nothing to you. I have only once caressed your face and that is a moment I shall always remember. There was a time when I could feel your breath close. And I shall never again feel like someone you are interested in. I write this with true feelings and true desires. I think not of what I want now, but of what I think is correct. You will leave soon and the wind will eventually blow away what I once felt. You have come and gone very often. We never once began anything special but you have ended permanently attached to me.