Been sleeping with the lights on

#Been_sleeping_with_the_lights_on Been sleeping with the lights on, images of you, not being right next to me, haunts me in the darkness, I want you to know that you are all I need, believe me, though my actions on the contrary, my inner battles overwhelms me, daily I know me exploding at any given chance, leaves you with constant blisters, I pray they turn not into scars, so not to constantly remind you of my flaws, wish I woke up one day, a better man for you, to love you the way you deserve to be loved, treat you well enough to last our lifetime Hate being your constant source of pain and disappointments, hate failing to keep you happy at all times, hate not being man enough to handle woman of your value, hate shutting you out from inner emotions, my real insecurities battles Hate constaly apologizing for wronging you, for savaging your fragility, for making you shed your tears, something I never wished to be the reason for, it's clear I keep failing to be what you envisioned of me, to you but please allow me learn to fix my flaws, help me into becoming what is ideal for your heart, mind and worth Wish to learn to love you better, to trust you more, to value you more, to love you enough, to allow you access into my deepest fears I guess is true, I'm not good one to understand but still I need love, for I'm just a man, with his emotional emperfections and don't want you to leave, I want you to hold my hand instead I want you, to stay me, for you are all I need, this ain't love if you are not in it with me, I need you more in my life than anything in the world, been sleeping with the lights on #Poetic_Ink