Beauty In the Night

Oh now I sit in my chamber, surrounded by the four white walls, and a painting of Athena, and it is midnight, a silvery moon not in sight. I can hear the thumping of my own heart, hearing it skip beats, like an off rhythm drum. Beauty in the night, here I stay, a year ago today, feeling abrupt and living in vain, for I do not have your love. Beauty in the night, starlit gazers huddle around me, and I hear the tolling of the church bells, and a photograph of your beauty outshining the darkest hour in the night. Oh, your smile, those brown, wide eyes, such a fool to let you go, I failed you, but as it goes, I am a fool to leave you. I thought it was you, who broke my heart... now I realize I was the one who broke my own. I see now you were young, and now your with another, smiling and happy, and yet I sit staring at an old photograph from the past. Sad... but it was my fault. Nothing now, but your true beauty in the night. Tis' I pray that one night, you'd come to my front door and we'd share love together once more; as in time not long ago we did, now it is a shame to keep such memory, it is living in vain, if I could not hold you for one more night. I felt that heart beat next to mine, and her hands soft and warm joined hand and hand, and those sweet kisses, lip to lip we loved and we loved and we loved, till the nights were passed over due and the mornings hurt our eyes, but we were in love, and we kissed the days away not minding whose hearts we made envy us. I loved thee, but now it is too late to love you all over again. Too much time taken away from my life that it is unbearable to go with you again, for already I know the answer. So, here I shall stay, buried in the notes I wrote you, and the poems I gave to you, the vases with dead roses that were once fresh and alive and I shall keep that one photograph, and drown in the seas of your beauty in the strange night. I shall shed no more tears, no more heartache and pain, I shall love again... soon, as you did not too long ago, and I will be happy and smile, become a romantic of my own and life will be grand. For now though, I shall drown in your beauty for one more night. .12.18.2013.