Beautiful Agony VII

XIX: Carefully preserved... Carefully preserved it will always be Always in the past, no future I can see But will always remain special to the same degree At least some in life value me for me Today is a good day, feel no pain Don't want to sink in that hole ever again Never got a chance to get wet in the rain But glad didn't get consumed, didn't turn vain And yet again, another new day Feelings unique, confused, won't go away The heart won't let go, the brain may No sunlight, no brightness, no hope, no ray And pessimistic all over again I sound Can't control the feelings that know no bound The positivity fading, once I found But what goes around, comes back around XX: What goes around... What goes around may never come back Even the good times you sometimes try to hack Need some magic out of Santa's sack Need the train moving on the very same track But Christmas is here And no merriment, no joy I hear Still holding onto something so dear Never letting go, do I need to fear? The heart is relentless with the chase Keeps swinging back to the same old phase Causing emotions to stir, expectations to raise Though life will never gain the same base And today I feel the same pain Pondering all this while, what did I gain But from negative thoughts I must refrain For life will never be the same again