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Battle Within My Mind

Battle within my Mind

Day by day
I live my life
Somehow, someway
Filled with toil and strife
You're back again
That little voice
Oh what a strain
When I wish to rejoice
I'm pulled back down
To a very dark place
Is this what it feels like to drown?
I feel like I've vanished without a trace
Some never know
The battle I face inside
Oh how I wish to show
My sadness on the outside
That little voice makes me feel small
When all I wish is to feel tall
My anxiousness fills me with shame
I wish to conquer it, to make it tame
It seems like when I take one step forward
The little voice makes me take two steps back
I wish I had some defence, a shield, a ward
As all that agony within begins to stack
That smug little voice whispers within my ears
"You're worthless," and plays upon all my fears
"Nobody loves you and nobody will", 
The voice cries out with glee
I try to drown it out and make it still,
How I wish that voice would just flee.
Sometimes I message all my friends,
As the voice whispers it'll never be.
One minute, a few days, my hearts begins to rend
I wait for the response, with loneliness inside.
As the voice taunts "I told you so", viciously
At times I feel so weak to the voice, and so I try to hide
I feel its smugness whenever it feels victory
To make things worse, that sound within my mind
Is the melody I hear daily, of my own voice
Being used to put me in a miserable bind
At times, it seems like I have no choice
Paralyzed inside and don't know how to move
As I seemingly dance to the voice's groove
Oh how I wish to purge it, and leave it all behind
But sadly, I cannot run from the battle within my mind.

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