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Written on September 3, 2023

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for my young friend, who bears the scars of her personal battle with darkness

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Scars, like lace etchings, a pattern
Rippling indentations against porcelain skin,
What is that? I ask her, never quite
So humble as my heart when she pulls her arm
Away, like a secret not ready to be opened,
An ache not quite ready to be known 
By anyone who might criticize or judge,
Anyone who might see the decorative design,
The shape of clever lines, so foolishly sketched,
Carved into delicate flesh with who could know…
Whatever tools she must have used, a knife –

Most likely a knife, yet it could have been something
Smoother, like a razor blade… sharp and willing
Against the tenderest flesh, the feeling bringing
Release from a mind, unbending – a mind, pleading
For the relief. 

The act of cutting bringing respite from the pain,
The heartaches with their own stealthy blades,
Cutting into the soft flesh of a heart, like stilettos
Puncture the black earth, leaving hasty wounds,
The bleeding earth never promises to settle, healing
From the rupture the way weeping flesh, bleeds
As she blinks back the tears…

Seeing only the liberation, the freedom that comes
From slicing through the surface of her skin,
Exposing the inner demons that breathe easier
When the wound has exposed her anguish,
Leaving marks for the world to see, indications
For you and me – inscriptions beckoning, whispering 
Into the silent night, erasing the throbbing of emotions,
Washing away the sensitivity with the subtle hint
Pain bleeding out its answers through the gash,
A laceration, filled with feelings that won’t last –
Feelings who sing of darkness and doubt,
Feelings who are mysteries of the fragile heart,
The heart who will reconcile, one day it will mend
only…

Will it still feel? Will this cutter ever genuinely heal?

Grace answers this with a resolve that feels like
Yes, etched into her flesh… Yes, God can reconcile
The only scars written on her flesh as her heart
Is returned to its best… with Him beside her, 
There is the promise that she’ll be a survivor!

Copyright © | Year Posted 2023




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Date: 9/3/2023 9:53:00 AM
Wow! Gina, you have really captured the emotions and pain of the situation with your words. I totally agree that there is a cure and that cure is Jesus! An excellent write! Blessings, Kim M
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Regina Mcintosh
Date: 9/3/2023 11:10:00 AM
Amen and double amen. Praise Him who saves and restores and makes a way where no way was before. Love to you, my friend. Love, Gina
Date: 9/3/2023 8:01:00 AM
such an empathetic piece, written with heart and soul..self-harm is so sad, i've done it myself on occasion, but it's never the answer to inner pain
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Regina Mcintosh
Date: 9/3/2023 8:42:00 AM
seems that many have found self harm and self-destruction to relieve the pain in a way. But, you're so right. It is not the true answer. Jesus is. God bless you sweet lady. Thank you for the comments. Love, Gina
Date: 9/3/2023 6:40:00 AM
“Feelings who are mysteries of the fragile heart” i love that! Your way with words is so unique and beautiful! Such a heartfelt write that flows in sheer brilliance
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Regina Mcintosh
Date: 9/3/2023 8:41:00 AM
I'm praying for this child, though she is a woman... still, so young, fragile like a tender flower, petals blown to and fro. Pray for her, friend. God bless you and thank you for commenting. Love, Gina

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