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Back Surgery, When

I know most people want them far away, No finger laid upon their precious skin. They squirm and wiggle fearful and afraid, A needle makes them pallid and they faint For me this is no problem, for I like Improvement doctors can provide for me: In silence I keep all my fingers crossed, I hope the tests will prove my body strong. This surgery I want, it will improve My life in many ways, but most of all, I hope it will decrease the pain I feel. For that alone I give myself to them These doctors I will welcome with a smile: The broadest smile that I can find in me. I'll grin and nod and totally comply! To show them I am ready to begin. So think of me tomorrow when they test If I am strong enough for surgery. Because if yes, next week or after that, I finally am rid of you lot here. Lol, only for a week or two, not yet! They have to give me green light first, but still Tomorrow I will hear if I am strong, Tomorrow they will tell me yes or no.... *** Iambic Pentameter Blank Verse March 8, 2017

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Arthur Vaso

Date: 3/10/2017 10:08:00 PM

It pains me to hear this, I sometimes ask what God would do this to one of the kindest warm hearted people I know. All I can do is say you are in my thoughts and you know many of us are here for you! Of course loved the poem too.

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 11:55:00 PM

Hugs, my dear friend!! Thank you.

Darren White

Date: 3/10/2017 12:58:00 AM

For those who wonder: they haven't given the green light yet. I have to go back for another Wednesday/Thursday stay next week, and by then they have hopefully decided, because this is a killer.... sigh ...

Maureen McGreavy The Insolent Rib
Date: 3/11/2017 5:17:00 PM

hope hope xomo

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 6:24:00 AM

Thanks my sweet friend <3 :)

Claudia Polydoro
Date: 3/10/2017 4:55:00 AM

They'll give you the green light. They probably want you a little stronger before that. Hugs

Doug Vinson

Date: 3/9/2017 9:35:00 AM

Strength and good thoughts to you, my friend. A huge ship rests easy in the harbor.

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 12:56:00 AM

Thank you so much, Doug.

Darren White

Date: 3/9/2017 12:47:00 AM

I only hear today when. Nothing will be done yet. See you tonight :)

Sara Ella

Date: 3/9/2017 12:44:00 AM

Hoping your back surgery is scheduled <3 And they help reduce or remove your back pain <3 <3 <3

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 12:56:00 AM

We'll chat/skype bout that <3

CayCay Jennings

Date: 3/8/2017 10:06:00 PM

I already know you are strong. God, knows we see you as strong. Even so, I am holding your hand, focusing on the perfect body that is yours by divine right as is a journey in health's true light. With love, CayCay, Kyle

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 12:56:00 AM

Thanks my friend. Unfortunately they haven't decided yet. I have to go in for another night next week. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Becca Teagan

Date: 3/8/2017 8:16:00 PM

I hope you get the help you need to feel better, dear Darren ... you are in my prayer. Hugs (oh and.. I like your poem too)

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 1:01:00 AM

Becca, thank you so much, also for liking my poem :)

Carol B.

Date: 3/8/2017 7:16:00 PM

Good Luck! I hope all goes well.

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 12:55:00 AM

Thank you Carol.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 3/8/2017 3:39:00 PM

Oh, Darren. I HOPE it happens!! I think it's so wonderful when there is technology out there that may help us and I dream of things for myself one day too (things that will just have to wait) This one is SO important to yo. I wish you all my best. I know how you must suffer.

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 1:02:00 AM

I hope so too, Andrea, it is so difficult, isn't it? Needing it and not being able to for so many different reasons?

Maureen McGreavy The Insolent Rib

Date: 3/8/2017 2:09:00 PM

...sorry my message popping up everywhere I think my iPad is on crack :o well another chance to say good luck!

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 1:06:00 AM

I understood, and I just want to say: thank you!

Darren White
Date: 3/8/2017 2:30:00 PM

It's okay. It's not your fault. It's the jumping glitch of Poetrysoup :)

Claudia Polydoro

Date: 3/8/2017 2:09:00 PM

I'll keep my pretzel fingers crossed to be a yes!!! It'll be my birthday present wish - that you can do this surgery and that you get rid of this pain. Good luck my sweet friend!!!!

Claudia Polydoro
Date: 3/11/2017 5:29:00 PM

You leave my pretzel fingers alone!!! hahahaha :P

Darren White
Date: 3/8/2017 2:32:00 PM

Gonna eat those fingers. You know that don't you? ;)

Lisa Ricci

Date: 3/8/2017 2:04:00 PM

Hi Darren its me again. I had a wonderful neurosurgeon and team. Please keep us updated as we will be thinking of you. With hope any physical pain can be relieved. Not that surgery takes it all away but it helps greatly for a better quality of life. If any pain level can be lowered than what better than that. I know this for certainty. May your team of doctors help you.

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 1:05:00 AM

The hospital I go to, they have been treating me for years now, and I have full faith in my neurosurgeon. And yes, you have understood that SO WELL! It will never take the pain away, but it can give me a better quality of life with hopefully less pain. I am very realistic, and that is indeed what I am aiming at.

Maureen McGreavy The Insolent Rib
Date: 3/8/2017 2:05:00 PM

...and stuck in the "on" position, my dear, I don't think the English language has strong enough words to describe the pain you endure. My chord was spared. I want to use some profanity for you now ;) I send you love instead. Maureen

Lisa Ricci

Date: 3/8/2017 1:56:00 PM

Dear Darren. As someone who has had surgery several times for several reasons. I say to you be not afraid. When the body is in physical pain or need the time is right. Have faith in your surgeon. Be not afraid of the anesthesia as well. I found it the best thing ever each time. I'm sorry however if you and your body are in need of medical attention. You will be in our thoughts. Please keep us informed. You are a treasure.

Darren White
Date: 3/10/2017 1:03:00 AM

Lisa, thank you so much. I am not afraid for the surgery, I am looking forward to it if that makes any sense.... And yes, I love the anaesthesia, I have no problems with it. Thank you again so very much for being so nice to me.

Maureen McGreavy The Insolent Rib
Date: 3/8/2017 2:02:00 PM

Maureen McGreavy The Insolent Rib

Date: 3/8/2017 1:16:00 PM

Oh good luck Darren, fingers and toes crossed for you. I live with pain, have broken my back and know how it can be an all encompassing pain; I hope you get the green light for surgery dear and come back with poetry to sing xomo

Darren White
Date: 3/8/2017 1:21:00 PM

Aha! I am paraplegic, live with a spinal cord injury.... So yes, I know! All these nerves that are stuck... sigh...