Available Choices Informing Me

I can select scant options available among figurative menu of life (mine) case in point, this ordinary day (July 10th, 2019) typifies small number routine prospects regarding how I will while away hours, cuz restrictions - circumscribed, linkedin, predicated by sought hade curried parameters incorporating genetic propensities inscribing mental, physical, and spiritual potential random talents bestowed upon yours truly in tandem with environmental factors during childhood (upbringing, middle class household income, homogeneous Caucasian neighborhood...), plus outcomes wrought by countless decisions (unfortunately usually, lapsed deadline determinant and/or nonpositive avoidance behavior - identified as passive aggression by mother dearest, she passed away 14+ years), since...tender boyhood age, when volition allowed, enabled, and provided restrained freedom (limited by parental approval until arbitrary 18th birthday), thus this moment essentially represents rapid flowing confluence regarding cumulative outcomes, whereby nexus (Lexus) of one outcome determined possibilities for next situation till present, which narrow bounds straitjacketed alternatives to utilize liberty productively, i.e. cultivating strengths finding this garden variety baby boomer (crying the blues) frittering time courtesy non beneficial trivial pursuits, which tellingly (no surprise) did not bring happiness to this life, where loose analogy being imprisoned since essentially majority (default) actions not serve best interests (mine), though recently conscious proactive effort to hone writing bred thru existence as bookworm. I conclude non jarringly tipping figurative hat to Fiona Apple, The Idler Wheel Is Wiser Than the Driver of the Screw and Whipping Cords Will Serve You More Than Ropes Will Ever Do.