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As I Held My Silence

In view of my mirror
Lately you appear
Smiling at me
While I'm twirling my hair
But you aren't really there
In my dreamy rear view

As I find fulfillment
In everything about you
Holding you closely
Without your consent
Indulging in memories
When I'm feeling lonely

Reminiscing fondly
A million happy tales
Laughing all the while
At every milestone
Celebrating birthdays
Toasting graduations
Growing up together
As lifelong friends

Until things changed
When I found pleasure
In every hug and touch
Longing for more
Of emotional rush
Seeking sweet solace
In sound of your laughter
And dreams of lovers
In romantic fairy tales

Never saying a word
Except in my prayers

Then came the moment
Expressing deep regret
For not having the courage
To tell you how I felt

As I held my silence
On your wedding day

December 26, 2018
Placed 1st: Strand choice F contest by Brian Strand

Copyright © Vijay Pandit | Year Posted 2018

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Edward Ibeh Date: 3/15/2020 7:50:00 AM Such a delightful read, Vijay:-) Congratulations on your fine first place win! Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 3/15/2020 11:40:00 AM Thank you Edward--much appreciate.

Sandra L. Weiss Date: 1/24/2019 2:10:00 PM A lovely poem, bittersweet at the end. Sadness and regret. Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 3/15/2020 11:40:00 AM Thank you Sandra--much appreciate.

Heidi Sands Date: 1/20/2019 3:11:00 PM Congratulations for climbing the best new poem list Vijay :) Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 3/15/2020 11:41:00 AM Thank you Heidi--much appreciate.

P.S. Awtry Date: 1/10/2019 8:47:00 AM I was enjoying this sweet love story and then...you jolted me with that last line... An important message expressed elegantly... Congratulations! Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 1/12/2019 7:58:00 AM Thank you P S Awtry.

Brandy Nicole Date: 1/2/2019 2:21:00 PM Being silent, sometimes hurts worse than saying what needs to be said. Congratulations Vijay, on this win. ~ Brandy Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 1/6/2019 7:45:00 AM Thank you Brandy.

Silent One Date: 1/1/2019 7:27:00 AM Brilliant poetry my friend.. never hold the silence... cant always be silent.. sometimes we need to speak up and be heard.. Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 1/6/2019 7:45:00 AM Thank you SO.

Demetrios Trifiatis Date: 12/31/2018 12:29:00 PM Explosive and moving ending! Excellently done but not enviable to live through such an experience! Congratulations my dear friend, Vijay ! More to come with the new year! Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/31/2018 2:22:00 PM Happy New Year to you my friend. Many thanks for your visit and comments.

Anne-Lise Andresen Date: 12/31/2018 12:09:00 PM - Congratulations on your great win, Vijay :) - Best wishes for the new year :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :) Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/31/2018 2:21:00 PM All the best to you in the new year, Anne-Lise. Many thanks.

Vladislav Raven Date: 12/31/2018 10:03:00 AM Hi Vijay, another excellent write from your pen my friend. This is such a wonderful write my friend, such a sad ending, from start to finish you had my complete attention. Have a very Happy New Year my friend. Your friend always....Mike. I almost forgot, congratulations on your win in the contest with this excellent write. Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/31/2018 2:21:00 PM Happy New Year to you Mike. Many thanks for the visit and kind feedback.

Liam Mcdaid Date: 12/30/2018 3:53:00 PM your pen sparkled in this vijay very beautifully painted canvas i pray you have a blessed new year ahead Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/31/2018 6:54:00 AM Happy New Year to you as well Liam..many thanks.

Andrea Dietrich Date: 12/30/2018 2:19:00 PM Back with congratulations. I see I missed out on the last one liner contest of Silent One as well. Good grief. How do we keep up here? Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/30/2018 3:32:00 PM Thank you, Andrea.

Alexis Y. Date: 12/30/2018 11:21:00 AM Hi Vijay, I'm just coming back to congratulations on a well deserved:-) Alexis Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/30/2018 3:32:00 PM Thank you Alexis.

Nette Onclaud Date: 12/30/2018 10:14:00 AM fireworks and smiles for you this coming new year... one more day before new year's eve!....huggs Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/30/2018 3:32:00 PM Thank you nette.

Eve Roper Date: 12/30/2018 8:55:00 AM Nicely done, Vijay. Congratulations on your win. May your new year be very blessed. Hugs Eve~`* Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/30/2018 3:31:00 PM Thank you Eve.

Debjani Mitra Date: 12/30/2018 2:18:00 AM Congratulations Vijay...What a captivating poem, on a simple theme..... one-sided love is beautiful indeed till it meets the inevitable end you expressed. Love your poems.. Happy New year Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/30/2018 7:14:00 AM Thank you Debjani--appreciate the kind feedback.

CayCay Jennings Date: 12/29/2018 11:42:00 PM Ouch! What an ending, broke my heart. A write that carries one through heavy emotional weight as talent-written and delivered. I felt the pain of heartbreak and regret that with the last line, I fear, must linger until I find a funny poem. Impressive poem. All the best ... CayCay Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/30/2018 7:14:00 AM Thank you CayCay..appreciate the kind remarks.

Janice Canerdy Date: 12/29/2018 9:04:00 PM So lovely--so sad! CONGRATS on your win! Janice Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/30/2018 7:13:00 AM Thank you Janice.

Faraz Ajmal Date: 12/29/2018 2:06:00 PM Love doesn't see the person or the place, it just kinda happens and often times it happens to the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time, yet the worse thing is when it happens with someone we don't have the guts to tell, and once we gather the courage, it is all too late, your poem shows all this very well, many congratulations on your wonderful 3rd position in my contest, good luck and have a really nice day Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/30/2018 7:13:00 AM Thank you Faraz.

Arturo Michael Date: 12/29/2018 7:33:00 AM Isn't it better to have loved than not loved at all...Such beautiful memories come handy in times of need...All the best Vijay Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/29/2018 8:09:00 AM So true. Appreciate your visit and comments Arturo..many thanks.

Kai Michael Neumann Date: 12/29/2018 2:50:00 AM Ouch, that is heartfelt and it hurts. I hope that you (if you are the protagonist) to move own and are more open about such secrets. Kind wishes, Kai Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/29/2018 8:08:00 AM Thank you Kai--appreciate your comments.

Andrea Dietrich Date: 12/28/2018 7:06:00 PM Hmmm, I was gonna try secret contest and just noticed it is no longer up. Good thing you wrote this one. I think it should do well as I come here to revisit it. Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/29/2018 8:07:00 AM Thank you Andrea..appreciate your visit and comments.

M. L. Kiser Date: 12/28/2018 3:39:00 PM Sad but true; many have held back and lost out. Well penned story. Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/28/2018 5:20:00 PM You are very kind...thank you MLK.

Joseph May Date: 12/28/2018 3:24:00 PM A poignant story of unexpressed love..Very nicely penned Vijay.. Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/28/2018 5:18:00 PM Thank you Joseph..appreciate the visit and kind feedback.

Paul Callus Date: 12/28/2018 11:18:00 AM How sad Vijay! It would be even sadder had she been in the same situation...both afraid of the all important step, probably dreading the loss of a very close friendship! ~ Another beautiful poem, Vijay. Regards // paul Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/28/2018 12:23:00 PM Much appreciate your kind feedback Paul. Many thanks. Regards.

Wren Rushing Date: 12/27/2018 8:15:00 PM The words not said are the ones we regret the most. Well written my dear friend and a fav for me. Login to Reply Vijay Pandit Date: 12/28/2018 7:34:00 AM That is quite special Wren..really appreciate the kind words..many thanks.

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