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As I Held My Silence

In view of my mirror Lately you appear Smiling at me While I'm twirling my hair But you aren't really there In my dreamy rear view As I find fulfillment In everything about you Holding you closely Without your consent Indulging in memories When I'm feeling lonely Reminiscing fondly A million happy tales Laughing all the while At every milestone Celebrating birthdays Toasting graduations Growing up together As lifelong friends Until things changed When I found pleasure In every hug and touch Longing for more Of emotional rush Seeking sweet solace In sound of your laughter And dreams of lovers In romantic fairy tales Never saying a word Except in my prayers Then came the moment Expressing deep regret For not having the courage To tell you how I felt As I held my silence On your wedding day December 26, 2018 Placed 1st: Strand choice F contest by Brian Strand

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Edward Ibeh

Date: 3/15/2020 7:50:00 AM

Such a delightful read, Vijay:-) Congratulations on your fine first place win!

Vijay Pandit
Date: 3/15/2020 11:40:00 AM

Thank you Edward--much appreciate.

Sandra L. Weiss

Date: 1/24/2019 2:10:00 PM

A lovely poem, bittersweet at the end. Sadness and regret.

Vijay Pandit
Date: 3/15/2020 11:40:00 AM

Thank you Sandra--much appreciate.

Heidi Sands

Date: 1/20/2019 3:11:00 PM

Congratulations for climbing the best new poem list Vijay :)

Vijay Pandit
Date: 3/15/2020 11:41:00 AM

Thank you Heidi--much appreciate.

P.S. Awtry

Date: 1/10/2019 8:47:00 AM

I was enjoying this sweet love story and then...you jolted me with that last line... An important message expressed elegantly... Congratulations!

Vijay Pandit
Date: 1/12/2019 7:58:00 AM

Thank you P S Awtry.

Brandy Nicole

Date: 1/2/2019 2:21:00 PM

Being silent, sometimes hurts worse than saying what needs to be said. Congratulations Vijay, on this win. ~ Brandy

Vijay Pandit
Date: 1/6/2019 7:45:00 AM

Thank you Brandy.

Silent One

Date: 1/1/2019 7:27:00 AM

Brilliant poetry my friend.. never hold the silence... cant always be silent.. sometimes we need to speak up and be heard..

Vijay Pandit
Date: 1/6/2019 7:45:00 AM

Thank you SO.

Demetrios Trifiatis

Date: 12/31/2018 12:29:00 PM

Explosive and moving ending! Excellently done but not enviable to live through such an experience! Congratulations my dear friend, Vijay ! More to come with the new year!

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/31/2018 2:22:00 PM

Happy New Year to you my friend. Many thanks for your visit and comments.

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 12/31/2018 12:09:00 PM

- Congratulations on your great win, Vijay :) - Best wishes for the new year :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/31/2018 2:21:00 PM

All the best to you in the new year, Anne-Lise. Many thanks.

Vladislav Raven

Date: 12/31/2018 10:03:00 AM

Hi Vijay, another excellent write from your pen my friend. This is such a wonderful write my friend, such a sad ending, from start to finish you had my complete attention. Have a very Happy New Year my friend. Your friend always....Mike. I almost forgot, congratulations on your win in the contest with this excellent write.

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/31/2018 2:21:00 PM

Happy New Year to you Mike. Many thanks for the visit and kind feedback.

Liam Mcdaid

Date: 12/30/2018 3:53:00 PM

your pen sparkled in this vijay very beautifully painted canvas i pray you have a blessed new year ahead

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/31/2018 6:54:00 AM

Happy New Year to you as well Liam..many thanks.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 12/30/2018 2:19:00 PM

Back with congratulations. I see I missed out on the last one liner contest of Silent One as well. Good grief. How do we keep up here?

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/30/2018 3:32:00 PM

Thank you, Andrea.

Alexis Y.

Date: 12/30/2018 11:21:00 AM

Hi Vijay, I'm just coming back to congratulations on a well deserved:-) Alexis

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/30/2018 3:32:00 PM

Thank you Alexis.

Nette Onclaud

Date: 12/30/2018 10:14:00 AM

fireworks and smiles for you this coming new year... one more day before new year's eve!....huggs

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/30/2018 3:32:00 PM

Thank you nette.

Eve Roper

Date: 12/30/2018 8:55:00 AM

Nicely done, Vijay. Congratulations on your win. May your new year be very blessed. Hugs Eve~`*

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/30/2018 3:31:00 PM

Thank you Eve.

Debjani Mitra

Date: 12/30/2018 2:18:00 AM

Congratulations Vijay...What a captivating poem, on a simple theme..... one-sided love is beautiful indeed till it meets the inevitable end you expressed. Love your poems.. Happy New year

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/30/2018 7:14:00 AM

Thank you Debjani--appreciate the kind feedback.

Caycay Jennings

Date: 12/29/2018 11:42:00 PM

Ouch! What an ending, broke my heart. A write that carries one through heavy emotional weight as talent-written and delivered. I felt the pain of heartbreak and regret that with the last line, I fear, must linger until I find a funny poem. Impressive poem. All the best ... CayCay

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/30/2018 7:14:00 AM

Thank you CayCay..appreciate the kind remarks.

Janice Canerdy

Date: 12/29/2018 9:04:00 PM

So lovely--so sad! CONGRATS on your win! Janice

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/30/2018 7:13:00 AM

Thank you Janice.

Faraz Ajmal

Date: 12/29/2018 2:06:00 PM

Love doesn't see the person or the place, it just kinda happens and often times it happens to the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time, yet the worse thing is when it happens with someone we don't have the guts to tell, and once we gather the courage, it is all too late, your poem shows all this very well, many congratulations on your wonderful 3rd position in my contest, good luck and have a really nice day

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/30/2018 7:13:00 AM

Thank you Faraz.

Arturo Michael

Date: 12/29/2018 7:33:00 AM

Isn't it better to have loved than not loved at all...Such beautiful memories come handy in times of need...All the best Vijay

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/29/2018 8:09:00 AM

So true. Appreciate your visit and comments Arturo..many thanks.

Kai Michael Neumann

Date: 12/29/2018 2:50:00 AM

Ouch, that is heartfelt and it hurts. I hope that you (if you are the protagonist) to move own and are more open about such secrets. Kind wishes, Kai

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/29/2018 8:08:00 AM

Thank you Kai--appreciate your comments.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 12/28/2018 7:06:00 PM

Hmmm, I was gonna try secret contest and just noticed it is no longer up. Good thing you wrote this one. I think it should do well as I come here to revisit it.

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/29/2018 8:07:00 AM

Thank you Andrea..appreciate your visit and comments.

M. L. Kiser

Date: 12/28/2018 3:39:00 PM

Sad but true; many have held back and lost out. Well penned story.

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/28/2018 5:20:00 PM

You are very kind...thank you MLK.

Joseph May

Date: 12/28/2018 3:24:00 PM

A poignant story of unexpressed love..Very nicely penned Vijay..

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/28/2018 5:18:00 PM

Thank you Joseph..appreciate the visit and kind feedback.

Paul Callus

Date: 12/28/2018 11:18:00 AM

How sad Vijay! It would be even sadder had she been in the same situation...both afraid of the all important step, probably dreading the loss of a very close friendship! ~ Another beautiful poem, Vijay. Regards // paul

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/28/2018 12:23:00 PM

Much appreciate your kind feedback Paul. Many thanks. Regards.

Wren Rushing

Date: 12/27/2018 8:15:00 PM

The words not said are the ones we regret the most. Well written my dear friend and a fav for me.

Vijay Pandit
Date: 12/28/2018 7:34:00 AM

That is quite special Wren..really appreciate the kind words..many thanks.