Army In Me

The temptations of armor, sheilding me from aching breaths. Save me from battle. A ruthless, lying war. Makes your face hurt and your temples burn. The anxiety eating away pieces of sanity. Laying down to sleep searing in your own heat, and waking shivering from the core. 43 minute blocks of time set aside to rest. And I close my eyes, every sound shakes my body. Float weightless for seconds on end and snap back into a body made of rock. A tiny chisel rattles the bones in my neck. Weak and so bleary eyed. I feel so damn invalidated, incapacitated, and inebriated. Malevolent soul wrapped up in my nerves, who said you could stay? A person I dont know lives here with me, a split indifferent personality. Maybe tomorrow Ill become somebody new. And my fellow soldiers could love me a little more. You resist the urge to laugh, but I tell you to feel free. Im safe here with my locked up jaw. Ill be more numb than you have ever known me to be tonight. Well be so much better than fine. Get down inside this bunker. Wait for the fallout. And pay no mind to the creatures in our mind.