Constance La France Poet Free verse

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''April 25, 2018'' Journal Entry

(April 25, 2018, Repost)

Of time Past-
I cannot discard you (memory)
no matter how far I push you  away
you come  c r e e p i n g  like a wild vine
deep in the corridors of my mind you grow . . . 
I wish you would depart
but NO-  I am viewing you in technicolor
like a movie well played . . . 

It is the death of my mother-
her time has run out
"call your family" said the doctor
and I did-  I called each one
one who did not come- my nephew
my sister said-  "he is afraid of death" 
(who isn't) . . . 
he was a grown man not a child

mother died -
a sweet beloved bird  f l u t t e r e d  away
quietly-  just as she had lived her short life

(I have held my thoughts to me . . .)

When he was a small baby
my mother purchased for HIM
all his diapers, formula, food, toys and clothes
she paid for the rent of an apartment 
she was the prime babysitter for years and years
but HE could not come on the day of her D E A T H 
a grown man could not pay his respect

I have never forgotten- never forgiven
(maybe I should . . . )
and I can only talk about it in my journal
n e v e r  to my family-
so I keep it inside of me to come creeping 
to make me angry again and again and again

Outside birds are chirping and a gentle breeze blows
perhaps a walk will make this memory
depart or at least  f a d e  -  (why am I weeping ?)

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April 25, 2018


Poetry/Free Verse/''April 25, 2018'' Journal Entry
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Andrea Dietrich October 22, 2020 at 2:30 PM wow, this is amazing, Constance. To think that she did all that for him and he could not even pay his final respects. Congrats for your very well deserved win. Can't believe this does not even have a comment. OMG. It's SO good. Constance La France October 23, 2020 at 8:06 AM Andrea, thanks for the congrats and nice comment, well,as to no comments, I post a lot late at night and I think my poems move down the list or even off the list by the time morning comes or maybe no one loves me ?_Constance