Anxious Anticipation

Anxious and giddy waiting for the much anticipated call The minutes fade into hours and the harsh reality sets in He was never going to call Annoyed and hurt I toss and turn in bed secretly hoping the phone will ring Thoughts of ignoring the call Or telling him off for disappointing me again consume me Finally decided that should he call I’ll tell him not to bother anymore The bitter pain and disappointment is just too much Finally sleep starts to take me and I hear the phone ring Eager and desperate to know he cares I answer the phone without a moment’s hesitation The same excuse as always is given I want so desperately for this to be the truth that I ignore the gut feeling In truth I know the only reason he called is because he was bored I pretend like I’m not hurt and disappointed with his lateness And continue to convince myself that he really does have feelings for me