Answer Me [part 1]

Whats supposed to be the order of things that just happen, Is it supposed to have a flow or is it supposed to be random, The phantoms, I can hear 'em, Man its too hard I cant bear 'em, Memories too vivid man I wish I could tear 'em. The pain I can resist but its the fear I cant handle, The mistakes that I made is now flashin' on every channel, No lights, I need a dazzle, My freakin' mind is irrational As hard as I try my life turns into a battle I fight every moment of my life, Im going crazy, The whole world's in a riot and they freakin' blame me, The devil's tryin' to claim me, The angels tryin' to tame me I try to be the light But crap; My worries chain me The pain in my shoulder grows it compromises the burden, I fall on my knees, I pray I wish I could hear him, But I hear nothing; It's just a cold wave of silence I wish I could pull the trigger And end this freakin' violence. I was bad God Now Im scared Please listen to me Please God Please answer my prayer Do you feel the Pain that I feel Why the silence Answer me Do you hear me Cryin' out loud Are you listening Answer me ____________________ My original work contains lots of profanity, tried to abide by the rules...... check out part 2 for the end of this song