And Find Emptiness
I sit and stare
at nothing
I sit and say
nothing
I sit and hear
nothing
In my mind I have thoughts
But they all seem to be tornados lately
Just swirling and twisting around my brain
But never slowing, never stopping
And when the thoughts have worn me out
I sleep...
Only to be confronted with nightmares
That leave me screaming the next morning
The thoughts seem more like tigers now
Shredding my brain with razor sharp teeth
And they never stop shredding
I go to school...
Useless words are pounded into my brain
A numbness overcomes my body
I walk through the hall and study faces
All happy or smiling and full of joy
I look in a mirror
And find emptiness
I go to lunch...
My thoughts are now a blazing fire
A fire that destroys all life in it's way
Everyone else's voice is completely drowned out
All I hear is the rage of the flames
I finished eating and got up to leave
And realize I hadn't tasted anything.
I go home...
My thoughts are now a bitter ice
Numbing anything good I might've had left
The ice leaves me thoughtless
Without a reason to live a minute longer
And no one else knows
Because I am living a lie...
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Jen H. | Year Posted 2009
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