Constance Gilmore Poet Rhyme

An Unwanted Gift

We crossed paths on a cool autumn day
 I was speechless and didn’t know what to say
 You were the finest thing I’d ever laid eyes on
 Something about you had me magnetically drawn
 I already had someone so I should have kept walking
 But you had me enamored with your pleasant talking
 You captivated me and I couldn’t stop my actions
 It all happened so fast, an unstoppable chain reaction
 The lust was overpowering and I couldn’t think clearly
 I cheated on my boyfriend, the one I love so dearly
 Butterflies in chaotic flight, emotions so very high
 Anticipation pressured me and I didn’t know why
 I gave myself willingly to a man I barely knew
 And after the guilt hit me, I began feeling so blue
 Asking myself questions like WHY? and HOW?
 Unsure of what the consequences would be now.
 My conscience ate at me like I was consumed with maggots
 Leaving me lifeless, there’s no way to backtrack it
 I’ve done what I’ve done and I want him to forgive me
 I’m sorry for my actions and my boyfriend believes me
 Before he loves me again, he wants me to go get checked
 I’d do anything for him and I refused to object
 A week later, I retrieved my results, had no need to worry
 But I should have; the stranger I knew gave me HIV…

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Carol Eastman April 6, 2012 at 10:28 AM The story of a deadly disease being spread through thoughtless actions... Very sad but very common. Some times it hard to remember we are more than emotions. Very well written piece. Constance Gilmore April 6, 2012 at 10:32 AM I agree! I have done thoughtless things myself in the past, but I have taken HIV tests to prove that I am negative. But not everyone is as lucky/blessed! Thank you so much, Carol, for reading so many of my poems. :)