An Enigmatic Companion

My long awaited companion but fickle and evasive entity I do not look forward to our upcoming date Though long anticipated I don’t think I will be ready My life's essence rebels against you Our long awaited rendezvous Becomes more and more a dreaded reality But I realize it's a necessary date albeit ephemeral I must keep it, I know, for he will transport to begin my search I await you my suitor, my patient companion, Full of trepidation, fully excited I await your embrace Fear grows grows within me as I ponder the inevitable questions will this date be the grand entry into a glorious forever Or an anticipated date that fizzles into a final ethereal nightmare Leaving me wrapped in an empty void ensconced with an enigmatic feeling of nothingness but still imbued with the burning question where is the Benevolent Creator