An Addicts Mindset

Addictive tendencies Looming ... Relapse time is Blooming ... Struggling removing thoughts on Using ... Enhanced temptations Consuming ... Life isn't supposed to be this Confusion ... I'm sick and tired of always drug Abusing ... In hopes that I'll feel a little Whoosing ... My ADHDs unable to accept Losing ... Distorted self perception from my Choosing ... Thoughts of deception starting Cursing ... Cancerous memories that would haunt Suzan ... The drugs aren't even that Amusing ... Complex solutions from situations Fusing ... Illogucal fears insterted shadowed Illusions .. Withdrawal consumed struggle Loosing .. Voices telling me to stop fighting and keep Using ... But I'm tired of re-runs of self Abusing .. I rather reign fire on fools Phurusing .. Settlement of my goals like I'm Sueing .. Remind myself that doubts over Flowing ... Beating addiction again without nobody even Knowing ... Switched lanes never sides loyalty still Showing ... Let you go No Shame No Apologizes ever Owing ...