Amends

Salty tears and razor blades The pain drips slowly from my skin Physical pain sets in, emotional pain subsides Then begins again When the pain builds inside I want to escape I want to run I want to hide I can’t hide from myself I do this to cope When I’m down low laying broken on the floor Left with no hope In the moment I want to fade the hurt I slash my pride Demean my worth See myself through your eyes It’s your distorted perception of me False esteem, iniquitous lies It’s not easy living in an unhealthy mind Wrapped in a warped sick self I start to unwind A bawled up knot Frayed at the ends Then I realize when I hurt my self Its to my loved ones I must make amends