Amber-Repost

i remember you;
giddy little child
with the mona-lisa smile
and sun-burnt hair
as it brushed against
your ivory skin
you were so innocent then

i never saw the sadness
that lingered in your eyes
the depths of green
seemed to pull others in
that hypnotizing glare
hid your pain well

they laughed with you
yet in silence you cried
muffled voice
echoed on walls
where darkness 
subdued your soul

i heard you sold your soul
on the corner
of fifth and main
for a small bag of pleasure
to escape the pain
momentarily
again

a lonely cat
cried by your side
he has nine lives
you've already had ten
yet there you go again
unafraid, stained
with your own blood

the band
still wrapped tight
against your flesh
needle tip
still feeding your veins
as you close your eyes
and rest in shallow breaths

i remember you;
still as the air
that august day
that sunlit hair
against grey skin
blue lips without smile
closed eyes pulling others in
to the depths of your pain
their cheeks stained
with tears
that bore your name
as muffled cries
echoed
by your grave





June 28, 2019
First Place
Best free verse 2019 Poetry Contest
Sponsored by John Hamilton

Copyright © Sandra Adams | Year Posted 2019
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Chiri Avatar
October 10, 2019 at 11:26 AM
Such an amazing write congrats on your first place win! This world is full of challenges we must all go through and this poem addiction is one almost everyone now days experience someway in our lives first hand or second hand! So sad but fact it seems any more! ;(
Adams Avatar
October 11, 2019 at 7:59 PM
very sad to think about...
Chiri Avatar
October 10, 2019 at 9:48 PM
I know it's too sad to think about!;(
Adams Avatar
October 10, 2019 at 4:38 PM
thank you...it is a sad fact all over the world today....so many falling...so many lost...but look at all the ugliness in this world these days...:(
Allison Avatar
October 10, 2019 at 5:03 AM
I have tears reading the poem Sandra, im sure others can relate to 'if only' it's so hard to come to terms with this tragic loss but i guess the grip of addiction is so strong and many turn to drugs to cope with other demons in their life. Adding this to my faves for so many reasons:-) hugs Jan xx
Adams Avatar
October 10, 2019 at 4:36 PM
Thank you so much Jan...i am honored that you faved this one...it's so hard to watch a generation slowly crumble....so many, not just here but all around the world...hugs
Green Avatar
October 9, 2019 at 8:14 AM
I am at a loss for words...sad, life is so precious and fragile. If only...pops into my mind. Your poem is wonderfully crafted like all of your work but it is so sad this one needed to be written.
Adams Avatar
October 9, 2019 at 8:42 AM
if only....we could reach people in their darkest moments, if only we knew... it did need to be written at the time... hugs :)
There Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 10:33 AM
Remember her as the child, my friend...always. Sad when a momentary escape is our last moment ~ a poignant poem speaking volumes of our ignorance as a human species...so sorry for your loss. Congrats on the win...
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 10:57 AM
thank you so much my friend, she was in my son's wedding two years ago, she took selfies with everyone... no one knew the importance of them until she became a memory... so sad to see so many fall...countless children i have known through the years, that i have watched grow and then saw fall... sad is this world we live in now... hugs
Pandit Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:25 AM
A powerful write, Sandy..so sad, but it speaks to lives of so many. Excellent, as always--thank you for posting it.
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:55 AM
Thank you so much Vijay, it was one of the first poems i posted after coming back from a few years of absence... i wanted to add her photo and didn't know how without resposting the whole poem...i am still learning these new features... hugs :)
Hamilton Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 8:17 AM
I didn't realize you withdrew this one, keep it posted please this should be heard loud and clear by the world, brought another tear this day, no one writes like you do!
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:04 AM
I didn't withdraw it, just wanted to add her photo and didn't know how without reposting it.... thank you John, for this kind comment and the win on this special piece! hugs :)
Theraven Avatar
October 7, 2019 at 11:03 PM
Sandra, Not easy to read..,harder to write I'm sure. So sad to lose someone, perhaps sadder to be the ones left behind? Left to pick up the pieces and go...on. -Richard
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:05 AM
Thank you Richard, last year we went to 10 out of 12 funerals...some family, some friends, some health or age related, some not.... Death is the sad part of life... hugs
Mcgee Avatar
October 7, 2019 at 10:35 PM
This is spectacular. so happy you got 1st place. Yes, this poem will be cherished.
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:08 AM
Thank you Jeanne, one of the first poems i wrote since coming back after a few years away....I was very happy it took first place too, and that was when my daughter-in-law first learned that i write poetry...it's not something i talk about with many...so many around me have no clue... hugs
May Avatar
October 7, 2019 at 10:16 PM
This ripped my heart out!
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:11 AM
sorry my friend...it was a sad moment..hugs
Horsman Avatar
October 7, 2019 at 10:06 PM
First time, i've read this amazing dedication. Not often, does reading a poem, take my breath away, like this did. In Fact this penned poem of despair highlights so much regarding our world today, and should be made available to the media, to have it's message broadcast for all.
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:13 AM
Thank you so much Harry...i have seen many friends lose children to depression in the last few years...it's like a whole generation is slowly fading away... hugs
Rodrigues Avatar
October 7, 2019 at 9:53 PM
Addiction and depression so sad. We long to live in the happiness. Nicely done.
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:14 AM
Thank you Kim...i have seen many children lose their lives to both....it always seems to be the kids that pretend to be the happiest... hugs
Yvonne Avatar
October 7, 2019 at 9:46 PM
Stunning. To find beauty in such a horrific event is no small feat. Still the loss of a young life is a tragedy. I fear she was too fragile too beautiful for the ugly world surrounds some as delicate & precious as her. Excellent poetry. A Fav.
Adams Avatar
October 8, 2019 at 9:15 AM
Thank you so much Maurice...i have seen many fall...it's a sad fact but this world is cruel and ugly .... hugs
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