Am I Transparent

Am I transparent? Am I numb to your vision? Have I been replaced? With new dreams and more ambitious haste Do I exist to you? Am I just a face in the crowd? Can you hear my piercing screams as I shout out loud? Does my blood run cold and drip slowly to the floor? Do my tears feel wet or is my energy absent from your fate? Destiny is supposed to bring me to you… But if I’m not here do I even have the right to say this? I am absent… I am gone… Don’t notice me when I perish In your heart I am merely a lonely pawn I am disappearing painful and slow My eyes are diminishing with a fading glow Does it make sense to you? Do you feel my whispers in your ears? Do you sense my retracting fears? Why must this process take more than years…? What is love? Is it not meant for me? Am I missing something? Am I broken inside? Can you drop me from above? Watch me suffer through the silent ride… Is there nothing there? Can I grip my hands around you? Can I hold you? Am I transparent…? Am I not getting through…? Why is there a barrier? Closed off my paths… Cutting me off to the joys of wonders and laughs… AM I a ghost? Do I frighten you? Am I that scary? Can you relate to me at all…? Can you send me away? Banish me out of Hell? When I feel lonely is it all right? As I walk around in a haze… Nothing in this life can ever phase I am not surprised for I am doomed… My life is cursed and I am marooned A storm always lurks over me. Am I dangerous? Am I transparent? Am I fading away? Are the memories disappearing…? Am I a dismal site? Does my burning heart glow bright? Do you find me abysmal in site? Is life fair at all? I can’t feel you… Should I suffer? I don’t know… Do I deserve this hard of a blow? Am I transparent…? Do I block your mental flow? Am I good enough? Or just a mistake? Have I faded away? Or do I reside deep in your memory bank…? Am I transparent…? Am I fake? Am I transparent…? Did you like making me break…?