Am I Too Big For a Life?

I grew up knowing i am different and i am special, i grew up paying rent and to strive is my battle. I was the best after a long time, talk of the world by the age i was nine, talent, fame, glory were all mine, my only control was my food when i would dine. I knew no friends, a child was denied, before i knew my soul had died, a man barred me from calling him dad, which hurt me real bad, if only he knew what i never had. Life of a star was what i led, the tabloids factory was what i fed, found out from what i read, some said i should be dead. They call them devoted fans, say i drive them crazy, said a hateful bone was what i was sans, found them accusations very sleazy. I pulled myself up from the mess, hoped to live a life my haters could never guess. I married twice for love and children, as to me God existed in only children, they refused..failed to comprehend my love for them, as to them i could love only my children. I was recognized world over, i broke all the records over and over, feared the day my youth will be over. I loved art and always will, it attracted me with a huge force, gave me peace.....which they never will, where i found solace. No matter how hard i tried to clarify all the doubts, they never got around or tried to simplify their routes. Was lost and abandoned in my fame, the person i am and was shy, they only knew my name, mercifully i looked up at the sky as they played their dirty game. I was a huge star, music and art were never far, wish i could get away from evil and remain the greatest star. World waited as there was to be a comeback, surprised them who thought i ain't ever getting back, prepared myself to get it all back, deserved this world no lack. I was denied my last wish....if i lived few more days, and showed the world what they wish. My legacy can not die with me, my talent can not lie with me. I am close to God and happy today, I've found so much peace in one day, talking to God by the sun light's ray, gone are the lonely and sad days, i would like to live forever this way. When i look back at my life, find name, fame, talent, betrayal, loneliness and love were all so rife, i can't help but ask God......“am i too big for a life? ”. Note: the subject “I” is Michael Jackson, i have tried to imagine how he felt during those days and how he feels now being far away.