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Am I Too Big For a Life?

I grew up knowing i am different and i am special, 
i grew up paying rent and to strive is my battle. 

I was the best after a long time, 
talk of the world by the age i was nine, 
talent, fame, glory were all mine, 
my only control was my food when i would dine.

I knew no friends, a child was denied, 
before i knew my soul had died, 
a man barred me from calling him dad, 
which hurt me real bad, 
if only he knew what i never had.

Life of a star was what i led, 
the tabloids factory was what i fed, 
found out from what i read, 
some said i should be dead.

They call them devoted fans, say i drive them crazy, 
said a hateful bone was what i was sans, found them accusations very sleazy.
I pulled myself up from the mess, 
hoped to live a life my haters could never guess.
I married twice for love and children, 
as to me God existed in only children, 
they refused..failed to comprehend my love for them, 
as to them i could love only my children.

I was recognized world over, 
i broke all the records over and over, 
feared the day my youth will be over. 

I loved art and always will, it attracted me with a huge force, 
gave me peace.....which they never will, where i found solace.
No matter how hard i tried to clarify all the doubts, 
they never got around or tried to simplify their routes. 

Was lost and abandoned in my fame, 
the person i am and was shy, they only knew my name, 
mercifully i looked up at the sky as they played their dirty game.

I was a huge star, music and art were never far, 
wish i could get away from evil and remain the greatest star.
World waited as there was to be a comeback, 
surprised them who thought i ain't ever getting back, 
prepared myself to get it all back, 
deserved this world no lack.

I was denied my last wish....if i lived few more days, 
and showed the world what they wish.
My legacy can not die with me, 
my talent can not lie with me.
I am close to God and happy today, 
I've found so much peace in one day, 
talking to God by the sun light's ray, 
gone are the lonely and sad days, 
i would like to live forever this way.
When i look back at my life, 
find name, fame, talent, betrayal, loneliness and love were all so rife, 
i can't help but ask God......“am i too big for a life? ”.

Note: the subject “I” is Michael Jackson, i have tried to imagine how he felt during those days 
and how he feels now being far away.

Copyright © Rinki Nandy | Year Posted 2010

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